I made this, so that you'll see that changes with in me! Do not stare because you might fall.
I'm happy before we end up like this.For sometimes I wonder why did this happen, but I know for some reasons common bad things do happen when you least expect it. I never thought it would end up this way. Sometimes I feel like I'm already dead. But as the saying says, we just have to make a choice. A choice to be good and never regret. Now as I look at this situation I really have to give up. I do not really know for who I am. Another saying is that, "There's nothing permanent in this world except changes..." And for sure, there would be a valid reason for this. Making bad things happen, having pain in the heart, and making a fool out of myself makes me, not the real type of character.But why am I doing this? Is this fate, or just being martyr, and playing a part of hiding myself in prison. But now, I know I have to move on..
If I can make it...
There's nothing more serious situations like this. Making this happen makes me cold. I'm changing and you made a big part of it. That big change made me like a steel, soaring high on anything. I do not care what will be the negative result but this is what I chose. I will search for myself too like what you said to me. I like the position I'm in right now. And I know me to you does not really matter at all. Even though you used to say you love me still. I know my capacity. I can rock any body's world as long as I want to and you know that.....
I'm letting you go. You made your decision. And I know that's what you want. I'm not use to this. And I am no use to you either. Thanks for all the lessons that you've taught me, and this will be the look I am implementing to you.. God bless and take care of yourself a lot...
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I really have to go, but do not let our love be fade away....
Let my soul smile through my heart and my heart smile through my eyes. If you are hurting, it only means one sure thing... you are infact genuinely loving!! In every excitement of every hello, there lies the pain fo goodbyes in the art of letting go. Even how hard we try to deny it... sometimes the hardest things and the right things are the same. I love you but I can't love you... its very hard for me to stop my heart on loving you but somewhat that is the right thing to do. The saddest part of letting go is actually realizing that you are just holding onto the memories of what once was...sometimes, it is hard to explain why no matter how much you love each other, there comes the time that you can't have forever. I finally made my choioce to go cause I can't stand to see you crying, its time for your last tears to fall and smile again. I'm sorry for I have to leave yyou... i'm sorry if I have to hurt you.. but please believe me if I still love you..now hold your hand in mine dont forget to breath... there is nothing for you, there is for me to leave..
Fantasies sometimes do come true but in reality, it is not for you and me to grow. Goodbyes make you think and realize what you've had, what you've lost and what you've taken for granted. We both know that this is the best for the two of us... a little space cause we know we've been hurting for the past months. I don not want to leave you but somehow I hope that our roads will cross once more and that time we will gonna love each other forevermore. If you know that no matter what you do, it's not gona work. Would you still care to stay knowing that life will be a little bit worst?
Tienes me corazon, por quedate conmingo... quero estar contigo el resto de me vida...
(You have my heart, but you remain pressured... I want to be with you for the rest of your life)
por que tu no puedo quere como yo querro a ti!
(You have the power to want me.)
I'll admit it, as unhappy as we were, there is nobody in this world I could be more happier than with you! Let me fade in the middle of the endless horizon but please do not let our love vanished along!
Fantasies sometimes do come true but in reality, it is not for you and me to grow. Goodbyes make you think and realize what you've had, what you've lost and what you've taken for granted. We both know that this is the best for the two of us... a little space cause we know we've been hurting for the past months. I don not want to leave you but somehow I hope that our roads will cross once more and that time we will gonna love each other forevermore. If you know that no matter what you do, it's not gona work. Would you still care to stay knowing that life will be a little bit worst?
Tienes me corazon, por quedate conmingo... quero estar contigo el resto de me vida...
(You have my heart, but you remain pressured... I want to be with you for the rest of your life)
por que tu no puedo quere como yo querro a ti!
(You have the power to want me.)
I'll admit it, as unhappy as we were, there is nobody in this world I could be more happier than with you! Let me fade in the middle of the endless horizon but please do not let our love vanished along!
Goodbye....
Is it over? I'm 99% sure hat you don't love me, but 1% is enough for me to hold on. If you were not will forever stay with me for the longest time you can just because my eyes do not tear, it doesn't mean that my heart does not cry. Just because it comes off a little strong, it doesn't mean that nothing is wrong. My friends once ask me if you do love me. I just closed my eyes and say "wishes do come true." If it is not you, it will never be you no matter how much I love you. But if you really care for me then we will always be no matter how I set you free. It is sad to think that you will never be mine, but it's sadder to realize that I know it all from the start.
What am I suppose to do? Just when i thought i was going to get you back, you go away from me again. If it's over, give me the chance to say goodbye but do not think that I do not care at all, cause that goodbye is my simple way of saying I LOVE YOU but i have to sacrifice...
GOODBYE!!!!
What am I suppose to do? Just when i thought i was going to get you back, you go away from me again. If it's over, give me the chance to say goodbye but do not think that I do not care at all, cause that goodbye is my simple way of saying I LOVE YOU but i have to sacrifice...
GOODBYE!!!!
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Love of myself....
A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one fo them will fall for the other,maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe to late or maybe, just maybe... forever.
Love is made by two people, in different kinds of solitude. It can be in a crowd, but in an oblivious crowd. Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and makes the tamest spirit wild. Love creates an US without destroying a ME.
The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved - love for ourselves. Life is one fool thing after another where as love is two fool things after each other. What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
Holding the heart of another in the comforting hands of prayer is a priceless act of love. You can't force someone to love you; all you can do is become someone who can be loved; the rest is up to them. We cannot choose who we love, only whose love we accept.
Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense. True love is spelled G-I-V-E. it is not based on what you can get but rooteed in what you can give to the other person. Once you have learned to love, you will have learned to live. To love someone is nothing, to loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one you love is everything. The pleasure of love is in the loving; and there is more joy in the passion one feels that it which one inspires.
The art of love... is largely the art of persistence...
We find rest in those we love, and we provide a resting place for those who love you. Real love begins where nothing is expected in return. Feelings are the most intimate part of a person. Sharing feelings is the greatest gift we can give one another. Never apologize for showing your feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth. They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel. It is easier to fight for one's principles than to live up to them. Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. Beauty is not worth thinking about; what is important is your mind. You don't want a fifty dollar haircut on a fifty-cent head. The world is moved along not only by the mighty shoves of its heroes, but also by the aggregate of tiny pushes of each honest worker. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. To keep our faces toward change, and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate, is strength undefeatable. Too often we enjoy the comfort of option without the discomfort of thought. Words ought to be a little wild, for they are the assault of thoughts on the unthinking. If you think you're too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito in the room. In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
Love is made by two people, in different kinds of solitude. It can be in a crowd, but in an oblivious crowd. Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and makes the tamest spirit wild. Love creates an US without destroying a ME.
The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved - love for ourselves. Life is one fool thing after another where as love is two fool things after each other. What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
Holding the heart of another in the comforting hands of prayer is a priceless act of love. You can't force someone to love you; all you can do is become someone who can be loved; the rest is up to them. We cannot choose who we love, only whose love we accept.
Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense. True love is spelled G-I-V-E. it is not based on what you can get but rooteed in what you can give to the other person. Once you have learned to love, you will have learned to live. To love someone is nothing, to loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one you love is everything. The pleasure of love is in the loving; and there is more joy in the passion one feels that it which one inspires.
The art of love... is largely the art of persistence...
We find rest in those we love, and we provide a resting place for those who love you. Real love begins where nothing is expected in return. Feelings are the most intimate part of a person. Sharing feelings is the greatest gift we can give one another. Never apologize for showing your feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth. They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel. It is easier to fight for one's principles than to live up to them. Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. Beauty is not worth thinking about; what is important is your mind. You don't want a fifty dollar haircut on a fifty-cent head. The world is moved along not only by the mighty shoves of its heroes, but also by the aggregate of tiny pushes of each honest worker. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. To keep our faces toward change, and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate, is strength undefeatable. Too often we enjoy the comfort of option without the discomfort of thought. Words ought to be a little wild, for they are the assault of thoughts on the unthinking. If you think you're too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito in the room. In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
My sad thoughts of Letting Go....
I guess if you're done breaking my heart, I should go...
As I stared in your eyes, you asked me why I was about to cry, cause I knew you're going to say goodbye. Why can't you see how much you hurt this time? You used to say you were sorry, now you don't. Your don't even care anymore. I never hated you for not loving me, but I hate you, for making me fall even more when I am trying to let you go. I'll never going to let you see through me. I am never going to show you how broken I am inside. My friends tell me to let go, or at least to try, but what do I do when I start to cry? I'm holding you back yet I do not want to let go. I am fighting back emotions I never fought before...
When you said you do not need me, I did not expect you to be right. My head rest on my pillow, I let the tears flow and ask myself, "Why can't I let go?" I know I have to say goodbye so many times before, but all roads lead me back to you. But now, as I say this goodbye, I have this feeling that I will never see you again. Honestly, I dont wanna cross your path in the future, Cause I do not want all these feelings to coe back and hurt me once again. I know I can't let go of my feelings, but I have to let you go..
Sorry! If it took me this long to let you go. I still love you, and I probably will love you for a very long time. But somehow I know, I have to move on and get over you. and the only way for me to do that is to be not around you anymore. Like what they say, we can't forget someone we loved, we may want to, but we can't. Love cannot be forgotten, no matter how hard we try, and how much we think it will ease the pain. It will always be there... FOREVER!!! Maybe fate will smile upon us and we'll see each other again...
SOMEDAY!!
- I made this while listening to the song "Someday" by Nina
As I stared in your eyes, you asked me why I was about to cry, cause I knew you're going to say goodbye. Why can't you see how much you hurt this time? You used to say you were sorry, now you don't. Your don't even care anymore. I never hated you for not loving me, but I hate you, for making me fall even more when I am trying to let you go. I'll never going to let you see through me. I am never going to show you how broken I am inside. My friends tell me to let go, or at least to try, but what do I do when I start to cry? I'm holding you back yet I do not want to let go. I am fighting back emotions I never fought before...
When you said you do not need me, I did not expect you to be right. My head rest on my pillow, I let the tears flow and ask myself, "Why can't I let go?" I know I have to say goodbye so many times before, but all roads lead me back to you. But now, as I say this goodbye, I have this feeling that I will never see you again. Honestly, I dont wanna cross your path in the future, Cause I do not want all these feelings to coe back and hurt me once again. I know I can't let go of my feelings, but I have to let you go..
Sorry! If it took me this long to let you go. I still love you, and I probably will love you for a very long time. But somehow I know, I have to move on and get over you. and the only way for me to do that is to be not around you anymore. Like what they say, we can't forget someone we loved, we may want to, but we can't. Love cannot be forgotten, no matter how hard we try, and how much we think it will ease the pain. It will always be there... FOREVER!!! Maybe fate will smile upon us and we'll see each other again...
SOMEDAY!!
- I made this while listening to the song "Someday" by Nina
A Love that is UNSPOKEN....
My crush on you....
As days pass by, my crush on you will always grow. I love you so much, more than what you know, I think about the days when I see you, I dream about all the things that we could do. Your sweet charming smile and your expressive eyes are powerful than my pride. I feel so nervous and uptight when you're around, but all I can do is sit here and write my feelings down. I'm so tired to pretend, but I am scared when you know the truth, things will change. We'll never be together but further at a longer range. As I sit here and write this blog for you, my tears fall because im madly in love, but you have no clue at all. I think it's time to set myself free, free from pain that cause by You. I tried so hard to forget you, but I always go back... thinking about you. I thought I will never cry when I see you from afar. But I guess I'm wrong, because it's slowly killing me inside. I wish I never met you, but somehow I'm glad cause I knew you.I try so hard to fight the urge of wanting you, because I will be so unfair for you, because You are my friend.
Why did I let myself believe that you want me too? Cause now, I have to pretend that I dont really care..
I guess it's better to leave my feelings unspoken because I do not deserve you. I try to hide it all and I must face it...
That you are only a DREAM... DREAMS that meant only for dreaming.
As days pass by, my crush on you will always grow. I love you so much, more than what you know, I think about the days when I see you, I dream about all the things that we could do. Your sweet charming smile and your expressive eyes are powerful than my pride. I feel so nervous and uptight when you're around, but all I can do is sit here and write my feelings down. I'm so tired to pretend, but I am scared when you know the truth, things will change. We'll never be together but further at a longer range. As I sit here and write this blog for you, my tears fall because im madly in love, but you have no clue at all. I think it's time to set myself free, free from pain that cause by You. I tried so hard to forget you, but I always go back... thinking about you. I thought I will never cry when I see you from afar. But I guess I'm wrong, because it's slowly killing me inside. I wish I never met you, but somehow I'm glad cause I knew you.I try so hard to fight the urge of wanting you, because I will be so unfair for you, because You are my friend.
Why did I let myself believe that you want me too? Cause now, I have to pretend that I dont really care..
I guess it's better to leave my feelings unspoken because I do not deserve you. I try to hide it all and I must face it...
That you are only a DREAM... DREAMS that meant only for dreaming.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Dedicated to someone out there....
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Some people are not meant to be in your life, no matter how much you want them to be.You hug him goodbye like it's nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever. I used to smile when I told people that you were mine, but now, I can't even smile and say your name at the same time. As much as I love you, I have to say goodbye, cause I know you would be happier if I let you go. I'm sorry if I made you cry, Im sorry if tears fell from your eyes, but remember, for every tears that fell from your eyes, two fell from mine.
Missing you isn't the hardest part, knowing I once had you, is what breaks my heart.
I'll never forget the times that we once shared, And I'll always remember how much you once cared. Now it's over, It's time to move on. It's never easy to see you turning back... but I have to take the pain, and cry all the way home cause I know it will never be the same. I know when you leave, distance will keep us apart. But distance, no matter how far, cannot change this feelings in my heart. Just turn your head when you see me, I will understand. One day, I will be able to look you in the eye, without feeling the pain I've caused you. I hope in time, you will be happy as you call my name once again. Happiness is too far for us now. But even if it's near, I know it will be hard for us to get there...
Baby, it's never gonna work out, I love you goodbye.....
- I made this while listening to the song "I Love You, Goodbye" by Nina
Missing you isn't the hardest part, knowing I once had you, is what breaks my heart.
I'll never forget the times that we once shared, And I'll always remember how much you once cared. Now it's over, It's time to move on. It's never easy to see you turning back... but I have to take the pain, and cry all the way home cause I know it will never be the same. I know when you leave, distance will keep us apart. But distance, no matter how far, cannot change this feelings in my heart. Just turn your head when you see me, I will understand. One day, I will be able to look you in the eye, without feeling the pain I've caused you. I hope in time, you will be happy as you call my name once again. Happiness is too far for us now. But even if it's near, I know it will be hard for us to get there...
Baby, it's never gonna work out, I love you goodbye.....
- I made this while listening to the song "I Love You, Goodbye" by Nina
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