My life in Misery

I’ve been living my life in a lie.

I’ve been keeping skeletons on my closet that only I and my few friends knew. I almost ruined my life. I felt like I haven’t done any good things in my life. My brother found it out, and told me, “SANA KAHIT MINSAN MAGING KUYA KA NAMAN!”

I know how much hatred my brother felt towards me. It’s been months that we are not talking to each other. I’m afraid that time will come, he will blackmail me. Until this day come.

If there might be the best decision I’ve done from the day I fell in love with him… this is when he asked me to be his girl for the third time, and finally I found the courage to say NO!

Half a year since I did not see and hear any news from him, no final talk, no formal break up. He left me just when I needed him the most. If he only knew how much pain it caused, how much tears I shed, sleepless nights that I keep on thinking about him. I’ve been so hopeless to see him wishing that he would come back. But it took six months before I finally had a chance to talk to him and it was all a coincidence. Now that he’s asking me back, give him at least a smallest chance to prove to me that what have he done was wrong, but finally I had the courage to tell him: “What for? I have heard all those lines before; did you keep any of your promises?”

He asked for forgiveness, I told him I did... let destiny bring us back if we are really meant for each other. I’ve lost everything because of him, and I might lose myself if I will let him annoyed me again.

I must admit, I still love him that’s why even how much pain he gave me, how sarcastically he told me that he doesn’t know my worth, still I cannot stop myself to forgive him, because my love for him kills all the anger and bitterness I felt for him.

But I don’t want to give myself false hopes, that this time; he is real… but not this time, not until I had found something new into myself… I want to live my life to the fullest.

I want to be happy. Before, I told myself, “I will be happy if I was with him.” But now, would I still want to be with the person who hurt me so badly? The reason why my conscience is killing me, and the worst, I could not accept to myself that once in my life, I have forgotten to love myself.

I don’t know why these things happen… I am in misery. If only I could turn back time.

Life is a continuous journey

The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.

Let your mind start a journey thru a strange new worls. Leave all your thoughts of the world you knew before. let your soul take you where you long to be. Close your eyes. Let your spirit start to soar, and you'll live as you've never lived before. And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

Life is a progress, and not a station. Life is a journey - you never know what may be your next destination. The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it.

For a long time, it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there were always some obstacles in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin.

At last, it dawned on me that these obstacled were my life. The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.

Life is a continuous journey.

YOU

There's always that one special person that no matter what they do, you cannot let them go...

All she want is one guy to prove to her that they are not all the same. Once you love someone that person is forever part of YOU. I wanna be the GIRL that he points to and says THAT's HER. I want to be the only hand you ever need to HOLD
If I did anything right in my life, it was when I gave my heart to you. When people ask me if i like you, I say NO, because I LOVE YOU and you are the one. I don't want to dream of you, I want to be with YOU...

Love has several definitions like: Love is like a bar of soap, once you think you got it, it slips away; Love is like war, Easy to start but hard to end, and impossible to forget. My heart aches whenever I think of you. He has the key to my heart. If we could only turn back time, but I guess we'll never know

I miss how we kissed, I missed the memories, I miss how I loved you, I miss your hand in mine, I MISS YOU. I play the same old song over and over again because it reminds me of you. You will never find anyone who will love you, the way I did and always will. Whatever happens, you are my one and only. Whatever you say, whatever you do, whatever you think I will always love you. I will promise I will never forget the first time we kissed or the day we met and said I LOVE YOU.I hold you inside my heart.. hoping you won't break it apart. The sky may fall and the stars may too, but in the end, I will still love you.

I love him, but he loves her.

Its funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. A tear falls forever inside a broken heart. Maybe I am not over him.. but then again, maybe I don't want to be... I want to spend forever in his arms
If we could only turn back time, but I guess we'll never know

How can you expect me to move on when you won't give my heart back? Can't you see that my love for you is TEARING ME APART? You hurt me so much when all I ever did was to LOVE you!!!!!!

I love you more than you knows. You asked what was wrong and I smiled and said NOTHING then I turned around and whispered EVERYTHING.

Please forgive me......

Once upon a time, I was falling in love... and now, I am falling apart. I know I'm not the prettiest girl alive and I know I'm not the smartest girl alive, But I know that no one can love you as much as mine

Maybe one day you will think of me how I thought of you, and one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you.Was it so wrong to LOVE you, that you had to hurt me so bad? As what other people used to say to me, "Never make somebody your everything cause when they are gone, you've got nothing."

Why won't you love me like I love you?
You once said you loved me, what happened?
You left nothing.
Spare me just 3 last words is all she heard

Too bad I cannot feel the love I want from YOU....