Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you had not? Or saying nothing, and wishing you had.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside, that I’d be willing to take that chance to be more than just your friend. I know that you know how I feel for you. All this time, I’ve been keeping the whole truth to myself because I’m scared; because saying it might mean you would run away and hide from me. So, I keep these sad thoughts to myself and never let you see the tears I cry and be contented that you let me be just your friend. You walked into my life when my world was dark was cold. If not because of you, I wouldn’t have opened my heart again. Until one fateful day, I couldn’t stop crying because I realized I was falling for you, then you told me that we’re best friends. I never knew you kissed your best friend passionately and held your arms around her. I don’t know much, except here I am again in love with a man I couldn’t call my best friend. I am not sure if this is wrong but then again, I don’t know what’s right. I will love you anyway, even if it’s a lonely fight. I am aware that you only came into my life for a while and time will come that I have to give you up. Then that is the end of it… there goes my life.
Someone once asked me if you do love me. I just closed my eyes and said, “Wishes do come true.” If it’s not you, it will never be you, no matter how much I love you. It’s sad to think that you will never be mine, but it’s sadder to realize that I knew it all from the start. Just when I thought I had the courage to tell you how I truly feel, it was too late because she came. I knew you’re not mine, but holding on to you has kept me alive.
I cry for the memories, I cry for the pain, I cry for the times I thought I had you. I don’t regret any of my feelings nor the times I’ve spent with you cause when I look at you, I see something different that what everyone else can see. Then you kissed me, the world around me melted. When you held me in your arms, I forgot everything but my world that was holding me. I want to be loved but you don’t seem to love me. As my mind kept on wandering, I found one answer… that even I’m scared, even if I’m hurt, I can still say “I love you.” If I cant have you, at least I was able to know I had you until this very moment I’m still trying to pick up those pieces. I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don’t know how to let you go. When even my smiles can’t cover up my pain, my tears won’t blame you. No matter how I wish, there are many unchangeable things in this world because the fact of my loving you is the truth that no one can change. You are still with me even though you are not by my side.
It’s not when I look back at all the memories and good times we had that make me sad. It when you consider those memories as nothing to you when they meant everything to me. If I can only have you in my dreams, then give me one huger sleeping pill so I can sleep forever. I am still walking down memory lane cause I know I’ll be running into you. And if you choose to walk away, I’d still be right here waiting. I can’t make you love me, want me, or understand me. All I can do is hope that someday you will…
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Laura Story - Grace
My heart is so proud. My mind is so unfocused.
I see the things You do through me as great things I have done. And now You gently break me, then lovingly You take me and hold me as my father and mold me as my maker.
Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
At times I may grow weak and feel a bit discouraged, knowing that someone, somewhere could do a better job. For who am I to serve You?I know I don't deserve You. And that's the part that burns in my heart and keeps me hanging on.
Chorus*
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
You are so patient with me, Lord.
As I walk with You, I'm learning what Your grace really means. The price that I could never pay was paid at Calvary. So, instead of trying to repay You, I'm learning to simply obey You
by giving up my life to you For all that You've given to me.
Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
I see the things You do through me as great things I have done. And now You gently break me, then lovingly You take me and hold me as my father and mold me as my maker.
Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
At times I may grow weak and feel a bit discouraged, knowing that someone, somewhere could do a better job. For who am I to serve You?I know I don't deserve You. And that's the part that burns in my heart and keeps me hanging on.
Chorus*
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
You are so patient with me, Lord.
As I walk with You, I'm learning what Your grace really means. The price that I could never pay was paid at Calvary. So, instead of trying to repay You, I'm learning to simply obey You
by giving up my life to you For all that You've given to me.
Chorus:
I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
Sunday, April 26, 2009
My Farewell Letter
Hey, cheer up! Never frown. Do not look at me with those lonely and teary eyes. No one is dying, but someone is leaving.... and that's me. But you don't have to be so depressed like that/ This is not the end, my friend. This si just the beginning.
I remembered it was 6 months ago when I knew someone like you. I found in you a true friend., someone I knew I could rely on, share jokes and secrets with. Most of my days were spent in having fun... because never will a day by without you, making me smile and laugh at all times.
I couldn't forget the day we argued. I thought it would be the end of our treasured friendship.I couldn't let someoen like you drift away from my grasp. But I still lucky, I had renewed the friendship that was almost ended by the test of time.
We remained strong. We stayed firm and resilient. In spite of the many hardship and trials we encountered, still we face them with courage and great faith with each other. With that I do believed, nothing and no one could ever break the tie of friendship we had.
So keep my word, believe in what I promised. Do not cry, for it breaks my heart to see you grieving when I leave. Distance wont hinder me from thinking of you. New friends? Dont worry. For no one could ever replace you here in my heart and in my life.
I wont bid you goodbye, cause I wont leave you, you know that. I just have to go on with my journey. Just pray for me, that I may have enough strength to face what lies ahead. I'll admit, Im afraid of what awaits me. but just holding on to our friendship, will keep me strong and courageousto face the changes and adversities to come.
If I will be back, and when I returned back here, you'll see how productive I can be. And I will tell anyone, "I'm back home, Intelenet."
Friend, this will not mean goodbye, this is just frist step towards a wider and bigger world.
I remembered it was 6 months ago when I knew someone like you. I found in you a true friend., someone I knew I could rely on, share jokes and secrets with. Most of my days were spent in having fun... because never will a day by without you, making me smile and laugh at all times.
I couldn't forget the day we argued. I thought it would be the end of our treasured friendship.I couldn't let someoen like you drift away from my grasp. But I still lucky, I had renewed the friendship that was almost ended by the test of time.
We remained strong. We stayed firm and resilient. In spite of the many hardship and trials we encountered, still we face them with courage and great faith with each other. With that I do believed, nothing and no one could ever break the tie of friendship we had.
So keep my word, believe in what I promised. Do not cry, for it breaks my heart to see you grieving when I leave. Distance wont hinder me from thinking of you. New friends? Dont worry. For no one could ever replace you here in my heart and in my life.
I wont bid you goodbye, cause I wont leave you, you know that. I just have to go on with my journey. Just pray for me, that I may have enough strength to face what lies ahead. I'll admit, Im afraid of what awaits me. but just holding on to our friendship, will keep me strong and courageousto face the changes and adversities to come.
If I will be back, and when I returned back here, you'll see how productive I can be. And I will tell anyone, "I'm back home, Intelenet."
Friend, this will not mean goodbye, this is just frist step towards a wider and bigger world.
Friday, December 26, 2008
A friend...
What is a friend?
A friend is someone you hold dear: Someone who is always there, thorugh thick ang thin; Someone who is only a phone call away
A friend is someone you can trust; someone who will guard your deepest secrets; Someone who will never let you down.
A friend is someone you can feel comfortable with: Someone you can sit silently beside, without conversation; Someone you do not need to fill quiet moments with
A friend is someone who can keep you grounded: Someone eho can gelp you see through your obstacles; Someone to shoulder you through life's trials
A friend is someone you can choose wisely, For a friend is your own mirror image: Someone to compliment your own self; Someone who indicates who you are as a person.
A friend.... is what you are to me.
With you, its all about voiceless communication - always knowing exactly what to say, but never actually having to say it. When no one seems to be listening, you hear. When I hurt but dont show it, you know. When I turn away to hide my tears, you see. When I feel like I can't get through to anyone, you understand. Your eyes glow just for me, and I know you're proud. You flash your magical, healing smile my way, and I now everything will be alright. You know everything there is to know about me. You know what worries me, what keeps me up at night, and what shames me so badly that I can't share it with anyone. More importantly, though none of these things bother you. You've restored my faith in peopleand proved that there is a thing called true friendship.
That's why I'm very lucky to have you
This friendship we share is so precious to me, i hope it grows and flourishes and lasts unto infinity. You are so extra special to me and so this to you I really must tell: You are my one true friend, My Guardian Angel. One friendship is one-in-a-million so lets hold on to it and each other. We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away for there will never be another. Thank you so much. I really appreciate the things that you've done to me, even the simpliest...
I'll be there....
I'll be there. When you need a shoulder to cry on, remember that I have a warm embrace, easy to offer comfort. When you think I'm too tough, remember that which does not kill you makes me stronger. When you need a friend to listen, remember that I am here for you, ALWAYS. When you doubt me, Remember that I once knelt at your feet, washing them in service to you. When you lose faith in yourself, remember that I never did, nor ever will.
Hope our friendship will last forever... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
A friend is someone you hold dear: Someone who is always there, thorugh thick ang thin; Someone who is only a phone call away
A friend is someone you can trust; someone who will guard your deepest secrets; Someone who will never let you down.
A friend is someone you can feel comfortable with: Someone you can sit silently beside, without conversation; Someone you do not need to fill quiet moments with
A friend is someone who can keep you grounded: Someone eho can gelp you see through your obstacles; Someone to shoulder you through life's trials
A friend is someone you can choose wisely, For a friend is your own mirror image: Someone to compliment your own self; Someone who indicates who you are as a person.
A friend.... is what you are to me.
With you, its all about voiceless communication - always knowing exactly what to say, but never actually having to say it. When no one seems to be listening, you hear. When I hurt but dont show it, you know. When I turn away to hide my tears, you see. When I feel like I can't get through to anyone, you understand. Your eyes glow just for me, and I know you're proud. You flash your magical, healing smile my way, and I now everything will be alright. You know everything there is to know about me. You know what worries me, what keeps me up at night, and what shames me so badly that I can't share it with anyone. More importantly, though none of these things bother you. You've restored my faith in peopleand proved that there is a thing called true friendship.
That's why I'm very lucky to have you
This friendship we share is so precious to me, i hope it grows and flourishes and lasts unto infinity. You are so extra special to me and so this to you I really must tell: You are my one true friend, My Guardian Angel. One friendship is one-in-a-million so lets hold on to it and each other. We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away for there will never be another. Thank you so much. I really appreciate the things that you've done to me, even the simpliest...
I'll be there....
I'll be there. When you need a shoulder to cry on, remember that I have a warm embrace, easy to offer comfort. When you think I'm too tough, remember that which does not kill you makes me stronger. When you need a friend to listen, remember that I am here for you, ALWAYS. When you doubt me, Remember that I once knelt at your feet, washing them in service to you. When you lose faith in yourself, remember that I never did, nor ever will.
Hope our friendship will last forever... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Somewhere.... somehow... someday...
It's over. He's gone.
Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems leeft undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, one of the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking crystal because you will never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bitternsweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty wihtout the other. I dont know if it's calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heal all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "... and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstance beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.
It's over. He's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere.... somehow... someday...
Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems leeft undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, one of the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking crystal because you will never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bitternsweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty wihtout the other. I dont know if it's calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heal all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "... and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstance beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.
It's over. He's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere.... somehow... someday...
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Art of Letting Go...
How do you let go of a love that you ever wanted from the start? How do you handle a situation where in you need to let go of someone special? We are all expected to loved and be loved... but are we willing to let it slip away even it feels so right on us?
It can hurt us so bad...that we are willing to do everything to get love back. We can do anything, any means, the question is... "is that someone aslo willing to go back? or you are just holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone else?"
Reality really hurts. We begun to think that life was so unfair, but no matter how hard it is to let go, we just have to, because if that's love's really destined for us, in time, it will be back. You will then realize that lot of people cares and loves you more than he did.
By time you learn to move on and let go, you'll find life more satisfying... you'll find many reasons why you should go on living. Because when you are stock with the pain you can do nothing but cry, and hurt yourself more, and if you have finally moved on, without bitterness in your heart, you'll be thanksful... because you had him once and he somehow make your life filled with love and joy. Or if not... you can clearly understand why did it have to end. If your path has cross again, you can learn to forgive and start another thing called friendship.
Things would be better again, even if you both, are taking seperate paths, life is still full of mysteries, you can never know what's really for you unless you have the courage to take the road of life. It is still great to love and get hurt than never loved and be loved at all. Take life slowly, never rush love because it will always find a way to reach you, it would always fall into the right place and time, and that no matter how painful your past love is, it doesnt mean it would always be like that. Remember that no matter how hard you hold on into someone, if it wasn't meant for you, it just wouldn't be.
Pain is part of loving... wihtout it, you'll never know that oyu are true, that you are not as numb as he thought, and when you find someone new, make sure to leave something for yourself. So when things are turning out sour, you will not be hurt badly, and won't take you eternity just to let go. Learning the true meaning of love letting go, moving on and being strong, would eventually make us a better person.
I have moved on and happy right now, cause I have learned the art of letting go...
It can hurt us so bad...that we are willing to do everything to get love back. We can do anything, any means, the question is... "is that someone aslo willing to go back? or you are just holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone else?"
Reality really hurts. We begun to think that life was so unfair, but no matter how hard it is to let go, we just have to, because if that's love's really destined for us, in time, it will be back. You will then realize that lot of people cares and loves you more than he did.
By time you learn to move on and let go, you'll find life more satisfying... you'll find many reasons why you should go on living. Because when you are stock with the pain you can do nothing but cry, and hurt yourself more, and if you have finally moved on, without bitterness in your heart, you'll be thanksful... because you had him once and he somehow make your life filled with love and joy. Or if not... you can clearly understand why did it have to end. If your path has cross again, you can learn to forgive and start another thing called friendship.
Things would be better again, even if you both, are taking seperate paths, life is still full of mysteries, you can never know what's really for you unless you have the courage to take the road of life. It is still great to love and get hurt than never loved and be loved at all. Take life slowly, never rush love because it will always find a way to reach you, it would always fall into the right place and time, and that no matter how painful your past love is, it doesnt mean it would always be like that. Remember that no matter how hard you hold on into someone, if it wasn't meant for you, it just wouldn't be.
Pain is part of loving... wihtout it, you'll never know that oyu are true, that you are not as numb as he thought, and when you find someone new, make sure to leave something for yourself. So when things are turning out sour, you will not be hurt badly, and won't take you eternity just to let go. Learning the true meaning of love letting go, moving on and being strong, would eventually make us a better person.
I have moved on and happy right now, cause I have learned the art of letting go...
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Art of Letting Go... Again?
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never meant to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the world, it's the beginning of new life. You never leave someone behind, you take part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind. I made a choice to finally go because I cannot stand the pain. It's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again. I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt, pictures can never replace being there memories forget the heard times, words can never replace feelings.
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love to find out if there is really something there. Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if there's really anything there to hold on to. Sometimes you won't let go of love. More times, love won't let go of you. Maybe some people are just passing through. It's like some people justcome through our lives to bring us soemthingt: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and that's why they're here... you'll have that gift forever.
I dont want to leave but sometimes it's better to go. Somehow I know we'll meet again. Not sure quite where and I dont know just when. You're in my heart, so until then... wanna smile, wanna cry, saying goodbye.
Maybe some people just are not meant to be in our lives forever. I cannot erase the past, but I must let it go.
Thanks for everything, I will miss you!!!
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love to find out if there is really something there. Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if there's really anything there to hold on to. Sometimes you won't let go of love. More times, love won't let go of you. Maybe some people are just passing through. It's like some people justcome through our lives to bring us soemthingt: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and that's why they're here... you'll have that gift forever.
I dont want to leave but sometimes it's better to go. Somehow I know we'll meet again. Not sure quite where and I dont know just when. You're in my heart, so until then... wanna smile, wanna cry, saying goodbye.
Maybe some people just are not meant to be in our lives forever. I cannot erase the past, but I must let it go.
Thanks for everything, I will miss you!!!
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