How Can I Let Go?

I pretended to be happy even though i felt breaking inside. I tried to fake smile but gloom was written all over my eyes. It is hard to see someone I use to love moving on with his life while i'm all alone, left behind. I used to think that he was the one for me, we're two different people enticed into the magical power of love.

Everyday was so wonderful, as if loved smiled at us. Everything seem to be perfect but why did things suddenly go wrong? Things change. He started to ignore me. he never listened. he never cared. I was crying out loud but he was too deaf to hear it. My world crumbled upon seeing things fell apart but he was drifting away into his own world where i was forbidden to go. I was left hanging while he was souring high not minding me at all. It is hard to let go of someone i promised to love forever, but how can i hold on to a relationship not knowing where to go or who to follow?

I've already mastered the trades in the game of love except the art of letting go which makes me a neophyte. My knees weaken and my heart beats like a crazy tattoo everytime we cross each other's path. There's that look in his soulful eyes which resolves my defenses and make me fall all over again. I tried to regain my composure by convincing myself that it is over even it deliberately breaks my heart into pieces. Inside i am hoping that it would still be us again but i know it will be a shattered ilusion.

Letting go means you love the best, they say... but how can i let go if loving him is the only thing i've wanted?