I remember the coldness of the night
When somebody leads me to the light
The warmth of his hands untangled my heart
That was entwined since the very first start
I remember the happy times we shared
the friendship that ran deep and fill the air
the bond that kept burning until one day
He reveals what his heart feels and says
I remember the song I used to hear
And his voice continue ringing in my ear
this lonely soul wanted you near
But i promised to let no drop of tear
I remember the feeling when we're apart
How i long to be with him and never depart
But he chose to leave me and be by her side
then i suddenly felt my world subside
I remember the pain I felt
When he turned his back and let my heart melt
the memories I used to cherish and embrace
Now i buried in my past and left with no trace
I remember the lies that made me blind
The truth that you kept behind
the time that quietly passed by
Not knowing how many times I cry
Life lessons....
Life is too short. Grudges re waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances, give everything and have no regrets. life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take good with the bad, smile when you are sad. Love what you got and always remember what you had. Always forgive, never forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
My shortest essay that I have made...
The truth is not a day goes by without you on my mind.
So many things I want to say, still the words are hard to find.
But I don't think I need big words to tell you how I feel,
Cause when I say "I miss you", that's exactly how I feel...
When I need you the most, I think of you.
I do not believe in ghost but I do believe you are always with me.
I try and try not to cry,
but the more I try, the more I miss you.
-- dedicated to the one who is so very dear and very special in my heart. He is in my new company now, in SGS Gulf Limited ROHQ.
So many things I want to say, still the words are hard to find.
But I don't think I need big words to tell you how I feel,
Cause when I say "I miss you", that's exactly how I feel...
When I need you the most, I think of you.
I do not believe in ghost but I do believe you are always with me.
I try and try not to cry,
but the more I try, the more I miss you.
-- dedicated to the one who is so very dear and very special in my heart. He is in my new company now, in SGS Gulf Limited ROHQ.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Someday, I need to let you go
you promised you wouldn't hurt me. how come we don't know always know when love begins, and we always know when it ends. you hurt me in a way i never thought that you could; you hurt me so much when all I ever did was to love you. Thinking about you is always breaking my heart. Maybe you don't love me like I love you. I think you will never realize how much you hurt me. It hurts so much to love you the way I do and then look at you and realize how much you don't care. someday you will want me back, and when that time comes, I WILL NOT CARE! maybe im not the one for you and maybe you're not the one i deserve. i promise, someday you'll regret losing me. goodbye to you.. goodbye to everything i thought i knew. you dont know me like you knew me. you stopped listening the moment that i needed you the most,you cant see me like you saw me. i have loved you with all my heart; you caused me so much pain but you did not care. you gave me noting that's all ive got; it hurts to breathe because every breath take proves i can't live without you. missing you is not the hard part; knowing once I had you is what breaks my heart maybe part of loving is learning to let go every time when i pour out my heart to you, im not sure it shows that i love you more than you'll never know. i walk away for you to go and find me. i try myself to hold on but you just let me go. maybe our love wasn't enough for us to hold on and be together, maybe my love was not enough for you even though I gave you everything that i can, my efforts and sacrifices go unfounded. my heart is broken, torn in two, my world fell apart all because of you. you're the one i loved, one thing that ive tried to hold on to. it is hard to deal with the pain of loving you everywhere i go, but im doing it. i may get hurt along the way, but ill find true love someday
Friday, January 18, 2008
JOE D Mango's Response
Arnel, there is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives. You could have done anything you wanted but Jerome's death was God's call. He works in ways that may sometimes be difficult to accept, but we should never question His judgment. He never took Jerome away, He just put an end to his painful suffering. Now, he is at peace with God and no longer in pain. You should be happy for him.
There was a time when you could not seem to compromise your career with your relationship with Jerome. You left him when he needed you the most and you came back when it was too late. You know you should have been with him when he had his attack but still you left him alone. It seemed like you had no choice, but you have an option. You have been silently carrying out this burden of guilt in your heart and I think this is the reason you are still lingering in pain.
You have to learn to forgive yourself for what you did and what you failed to do with Jerome. The only way to move on is to stop blaming God or yourself for Jerome's death. God did not take away the reason for your existence. he just spared you from more pain.
You can spend the rest of yourlife questioning God, probably finding a few answers and ending up being miserable. Many if us who have lost very special peoplecry over and over in pain. But we have to realize that one day, tears have to stop falling and the hurting has to end for we cannot be prisoners of the past forever.
Stop being bitter, Jerome does not want to see you this way. he wants you to be happy. You have lost someone you love but that does not mean that you cannot love again. Let us always remember that we can only move on if we accept the things that we do not want to happen, learn the things we do not want to know and let go of the memories we cannot live without.
I hope this helps.
Joe
*******
This is not the exact answer word per word of Joe but the same thought only.
There was a time when you could not seem to compromise your career with your relationship with Jerome. You left him when he needed you the most and you came back when it was too late. You know you should have been with him when he had his attack but still you left him alone. It seemed like you had no choice, but you have an option. You have been silently carrying out this burden of guilt in your heart and I think this is the reason you are still lingering in pain.
You have to learn to forgive yourself for what you did and what you failed to do with Jerome. The only way to move on is to stop blaming God or yourself for Jerome's death. God did not take away the reason for your existence. he just spared you from more pain.
You can spend the rest of yourlife questioning God, probably finding a few answers and ending up being miserable. Many if us who have lost very special peoplecry over and over in pain. But we have to realize that one day, tears have to stop falling and the hurting has to end for we cannot be prisoners of the past forever.
Stop being bitter, Jerome does not want to see you this way. he wants you to be happy. You have lost someone you love but that does not mean that you cannot love again. Let us always remember that we can only move on if we accept the things that we do not want to happen, learn the things we do not want to know and let go of the memories we cannot live without.
I hope this helps.
Joe
*******
This is not the exact answer word per word of Joe but the same thought only.
Grieving Over the Loss of Only Love
Dear Joe,
My story started last 2002 but it is only now that I got courage to share my story to you and my fellow listeners.
Joe, I am a 20 year old student here in Makati. When I was in high school, I met Jerome. That was the time when my adviser got mad at me because of the accusations against me. While I am on my way home, some boys played a trick on me. They pulled my bag and then my things spread on the ground. They even tore my bag and treat it like a basketball. I cannot do anything aside from crying. Good thing, he came. He saved me from them. That night, I feel something unusual deep within inside of myself. I prayed for him that he would be okay and I wish that I could see him again.
The next day, I saw him again outside our school. I treat him in a banana cue snack and then afterwards, I asked him to join me to go to the adoration chapel just to pray. I thanked him for saving me to those naughty boys. Then he asked me “Arnel, there is something I will show to you.” I immediately said YES. Then we went there. That place was so magical. You could the gentle force of the wind gently kissing your face, the sound of the humming birds, and the breeze of the flowing water really refreshes me. Every time the school dismisses, I used to go along with him on that place. I used to do my assignments there and he assists me mostly on Physics.
One time, when we were there, he played his guitar and he played the song LOVERSMOON. As he strummed his guitar, tears fall from his eyes. I know that he has a problem that he is not telling me but I just ignored it. He saw me staring at him and he told me, “The message of the song, I mean it for you!”
One day he asked me, “Can you join in the family party on Saturday? It’s my lola’s birthday. I told them that I have a new friend and I’m going to introduce you to them.” I said yes to his invitation and I promised that I will be there on time. Saturday came and the party is already starting. He introduced me to his family. They are so happy. Then his little sister Jane approaches me and she talked to me. We talked of so many things. Later that day, Jerome asked me, “Arnel do you want to go home?” “No”, I responded. That time, I became very curious to all of his movements.
When it is time to go home, I immediately bid farewell to his relatives. I also made a promise to them that I would also be there on Christmas day if I would be available. I have noticed a light feeling that I have inside of me because they have treated me like a family. When we arrived home, I asked him to go inside first of the house and I will just change my clothes. When I go out of my room, he is gone. I saw a letter on my slippers and I read it “Arnel, I have to go. My mom is looking for me.”
The next day, I told him why he did that. The only word that he uttered is SORRY. I do not know why I felt his sincerity when he said that word that’s why I forgave him.
One day a terrible thing came to me. For me, this is the worst scenario of my life. I did not see him anymore. I usually go to our meeting place but still he is not going there. One time, I went to their house. Their neighbor told me that he is brought to the hospital because he collapsed. That night, I went immediately to the hospital where he brought. Outside the room, I saw his sister Jane. She told me that Jerome was suffering from sever headaches lately. He did not want to go to a doctor because he was afraid of knowing his true sickness was. It was the first time that Jerome collapsed.
Later, Jane told me that her brother has LEUKEMIA. He was already unconscious for three days. She asked me to go inside and told me, “Kuya Arnel, wala na tayong magagawa. Pagdasal na lang natin siya.” I even bought our favorite food which is siopao but it was too late.
When I entered the room, I saw his mother crying. Then he told me that she will go to the canteen to have a snack then afterwards, she will come back. When she left, I asked him to press my hand if he hears me. Then suddenly, he did! I told him crying, “Ang daya mo naman. Sabi mo walang sikreto, bakit nilihim mong may sakit ka?” He said, “Ayaw ko na magalala ka pa!” He asked me if he could lean on me. I grant his request so that I would not give him any hard feelings. 11:00 in the evening, the sound of the continuous beep on the ECG machine echoed as I saw him became lifeless. I cried and mourn so loudly. Suddenly, I saw a crucifix on top of his bed and I prayed, “Alam ko na naging masama akong anak sa Inyo. Pero hinihiling ko lang po sandali lang pahiram muna niya.” Then, he raised his hand and hold me to my arms. Then he whispered, “Gusto ko na magpahinga!” Even though it hurts me, I have to let him go.
Joe, Jerome was already dead. I threw the siopao that I brought and hugged him very tightly. “Jerome, sige na magpahinga ka na. Kakayanin ko sarili ko ngayong wala ka na” was all I could whisper into him in tears.
His mom told me this words in tears... "Lumayo siya dahil ayaw niyang malaman ang katotohanan tungkol sa sakit niya. Nagpunta siya sa isang lugar na walang nakakikilala sa kanya. At sa paglayo niya, ay nakilala ka niya."
His death has posed so many questions. Why did the Lord deprive him with the gift of life, when there is someone who cannot live without him? Why did he not take me instead? Why should these things happen to me? Did I do anything wrong to experience a life like this? Why Joe, is He doing this to me?
I asked the help of a psychiatrist and a psychologist, but not even the medicines, therapies and dictionaries could alleviate the pain I feel. His memories are still here… lingers in my heart.
I have been living in pain for the past 4 years and perhaps I continue to live in pain. Does God still have a plan for me when He already took the reason for my existence?
Thank you for allowing me to share my bitter story with you and your fellow listeners. Can you please play the song LOVERSMOON by Glenn Frey? It will bring back a smile on Jerome’s face wherever he may be.
ALWAYS,
Arnel
My story started last 2002 but it is only now that I got courage to share my story to you and my fellow listeners.
Joe, I am a 20 year old student here in Makati. When I was in high school, I met Jerome. That was the time when my adviser got mad at me because of the accusations against me. While I am on my way home, some boys played a trick on me. They pulled my bag and then my things spread on the ground. They even tore my bag and treat it like a basketball. I cannot do anything aside from crying. Good thing, he came. He saved me from them. That night, I feel something unusual deep within inside of myself. I prayed for him that he would be okay and I wish that I could see him again.
The next day, I saw him again outside our school. I treat him in a banana cue snack and then afterwards, I asked him to join me to go to the adoration chapel just to pray. I thanked him for saving me to those naughty boys. Then he asked me “Arnel, there is something I will show to you.” I immediately said YES. Then we went there. That place was so magical. You could the gentle force of the wind gently kissing your face, the sound of the humming birds, and the breeze of the flowing water really refreshes me. Every time the school dismisses, I used to go along with him on that place. I used to do my assignments there and he assists me mostly on Physics.
One time, when we were there, he played his guitar and he played the song LOVERSMOON. As he strummed his guitar, tears fall from his eyes. I know that he has a problem that he is not telling me but I just ignored it. He saw me staring at him and he told me, “The message of the song, I mean it for you!”
One day he asked me, “Can you join in the family party on Saturday? It’s my lola’s birthday. I told them that I have a new friend and I’m going to introduce you to them.” I said yes to his invitation and I promised that I will be there on time. Saturday came and the party is already starting. He introduced me to his family. They are so happy. Then his little sister Jane approaches me and she talked to me. We talked of so many things. Later that day, Jerome asked me, “Arnel do you want to go home?” “No”, I responded. That time, I became very curious to all of his movements.
When it is time to go home, I immediately bid farewell to his relatives. I also made a promise to them that I would also be there on Christmas day if I would be available. I have noticed a light feeling that I have inside of me because they have treated me like a family. When we arrived home, I asked him to go inside first of the house and I will just change my clothes. When I go out of my room, he is gone. I saw a letter on my slippers and I read it “Arnel, I have to go. My mom is looking for me.”
The next day, I told him why he did that. The only word that he uttered is SORRY. I do not know why I felt his sincerity when he said that word that’s why I forgave him.
One day a terrible thing came to me. For me, this is the worst scenario of my life. I did not see him anymore. I usually go to our meeting place but still he is not going there. One time, I went to their house. Their neighbor told me that he is brought to the hospital because he collapsed. That night, I went immediately to the hospital where he brought. Outside the room, I saw his sister Jane. She told me that Jerome was suffering from sever headaches lately. He did not want to go to a doctor because he was afraid of knowing his true sickness was. It was the first time that Jerome collapsed.
Later, Jane told me that her brother has LEUKEMIA. He was already unconscious for three days. She asked me to go inside and told me, “Kuya Arnel, wala na tayong magagawa. Pagdasal na lang natin siya.” I even bought our favorite food which is siopao but it was too late.
When I entered the room, I saw his mother crying. Then he told me that she will go to the canteen to have a snack then afterwards, she will come back. When she left, I asked him to press my hand if he hears me. Then suddenly, he did! I told him crying, “Ang daya mo naman. Sabi mo walang sikreto, bakit nilihim mong may sakit ka?” He said, “Ayaw ko na magalala ka pa!” He asked me if he could lean on me. I grant his request so that I would not give him any hard feelings. 11:00 in the evening, the sound of the continuous beep on the ECG machine echoed as I saw him became lifeless. I cried and mourn so loudly. Suddenly, I saw a crucifix on top of his bed and I prayed, “Alam ko na naging masama akong anak sa Inyo. Pero hinihiling ko lang po sandali lang pahiram muna niya.” Then, he raised his hand and hold me to my arms. Then he whispered, “Gusto ko na magpahinga!” Even though it hurts me, I have to let him go.
Joe, Jerome was already dead. I threw the siopao that I brought and hugged him very tightly. “Jerome, sige na magpahinga ka na. Kakayanin ko sarili ko ngayong wala ka na” was all I could whisper into him in tears.
His mom told me this words in tears... "Lumayo siya dahil ayaw niyang malaman ang katotohanan tungkol sa sakit niya. Nagpunta siya sa isang lugar na walang nakakikilala sa kanya. At sa paglayo niya, ay nakilala ka niya."
His death has posed so many questions. Why did the Lord deprive him with the gift of life, when there is someone who cannot live without him? Why did he not take me instead? Why should these things happen to me? Did I do anything wrong to experience a life like this? Why Joe, is He doing this to me?
I asked the help of a psychiatrist and a psychologist, but not even the medicines, therapies and dictionaries could alleviate the pain I feel. His memories are still here… lingers in my heart.
I have been living in pain for the past 4 years and perhaps I continue to live in pain. Does God still have a plan for me when He already took the reason for my existence?
Thank you for allowing me to share my bitter story with you and your fellow listeners. Can you please play the song LOVERSMOON by Glenn Frey? It will bring back a smile on Jerome’s face wherever he may be.
ALWAYS,
Arnel
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Loving and Waiting in Vain
it hurts, it really hurts...
just when i thought the long wait is over... reality just made me realized, the waiting has just started... just when i thought that everything is already fine, truth is, everything is still not ok...
is the waiting going to be worth it?? am i going to be able to hold on? am i going to be able to bear the pain the waiting is causing me? so many questions but not so many answers...
i'm still clinging, holding on... i am going to wait for it is my happiness that's going to be the reward for waiting... but i hope that i would not give up, for people also get tired...
but to the person i love, i am promising that i will be waiting until i cannot hold on anymore... for you i will, eventhough it is tough... for you are my happiness and that i dont want to miss that thing that is going to be my everything... i will wait in here, for you... ;c
Several Reasons why I love you
We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience make us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday is shattered and we are fling. Dimly seeing there, And for drawing out into the light, All the beautiful belongings that no ne else had looked quite far enough to find. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that does not diminish its value. Because we are left wiht memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives. You have done it wihtout a touch, without a word, without a sign. you have done it by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being a friend means, after all. I love you because you are helping me to make of the lumber of my life not a tavern but a temple; Out of the works of every day not a reproach but a song.
I love you not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.
I love you for that part of me; I love you for putting your hand into my heaped-up heart. And passing over all the foolish, weak things that you can't help.
I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself but what you are making of me.
I love you not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.
I love you for that part of me; I love you for putting your hand into my heaped-up heart. And passing over all the foolish, weak things that you can't help.
I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself but what you are making of me.
Shower me with your love
My heart is filled with so much love and I need
Someone I can call my own
To fall in love, that's what everyone's dreaming of
I hold these feelings oh so strong
Life is too short
To live alone
Without someone
To call my own
I will care for you
You will care for me
Our love will live forever...
Chorus:
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love that I long for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for
I close my eyes and pray all my wishes come true
Every nite I go to sleep
Until you're mine, I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see
Fairy tales, they do
Sometimes come true
If you believe, it
Could happen to you
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever...
Repeat Chorus
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
Live forever...
Repeat Chorus 2x
Someone I can call my own
To fall in love, that's what everyone's dreaming of
I hold these feelings oh so strong
Life is too short
To live alone
Without someone
To call my own
I will care for you
You will care for me
Our love will live forever...
Chorus:
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love that I long for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for
I close my eyes and pray all my wishes come true
Every nite I go to sleep
Until you're mine, I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see
Fairy tales, they do
Sometimes come true
If you believe, it
Could happen to you
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever...
Repeat Chorus
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
Live forever...
Repeat Chorus 2x
Saturday, January 5, 2008
I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE AND I WILL NEVER STOP CARING!!
You know what's sad about love?
It's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you bwing together yet you still pray to make it work, it's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on, and most of all it's when no matter how you try to forget him or her you just can't, because of the fact that you still love him or her and you just do not know why. Try loving someone you've loved before and you'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before... or something better. Not hard isn't it?
" But why not try loving someone who does not love you back. it's either you see yourself giving up or dying daily..." - Grey's Anatomy
If you love and get hurt, love more, if you love more and get hurt more, love even more, if you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.. - William Shakepeare
The gauge of how much you truly treasure sometihng or someone is not how happy you are with them, but how sad you are when you lose them. One grows distant form another not because of indifference but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer, a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it...
Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance; Staying in love is never by chance - always by choice; And faling out of love is never a choice - always a decision.
Attraction comeds to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. Listen: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen... We may meet someone by chance, but loving and staying with that someone is still a choice. Just because my eyes don't have tears, it doesn't mean that my heart does not cry. Just because you always see me strong, it does not mean that there is nothing wrong. Sometimes I choose to pretend I'm happy so I do not have to explain to people who would never even understand. Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why I am sad. It's never the tears that measure the pain, sometimes it's the smile we fake. A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes.. while everyone stil believes in the smile on your face. The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world, and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine. Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what we once had and lost. TIme can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done, because God gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us. So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now, because when they go, there won't be time to have them back.
In life, I have done every way of fighting. Heard every painful truth, been in every heartbreaking scene and felt every dreadful feeling. I thought going thru it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight at least to save alittle for myself.. But you know what's funny? It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all.. but still I can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day... I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just "right" but "real."
Love is like giving someone a gun, having them point at your heart. And trusting them to never pull the trigger. I do not know why well hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It'd like we are scared to lose what we do not really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is: "to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all." I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have, who could hold me tight, the one who will never let me go. till every drop of tears that I have had fallen, till every strength that I have has already passed out, then I can no longer move, as she or he lay me down in my bed sings me a lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me, I will never leave you, angel of mine..
Time may take us away, space may keep us apart, rumors and hurts may break us down, yet no matter where life leads us....
I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE AND I WILL NEVER STOP CARING!!
It's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you bwing together yet you still pray to make it work, it's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on, and most of all it's when no matter how you try to forget him or her you just can't, because of the fact that you still love him or her and you just do not know why. Try loving someone you've loved before and you'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before... or something better. Not hard isn't it?
" But why not try loving someone who does not love you back. it's either you see yourself giving up or dying daily..." - Grey's Anatomy
If you love and get hurt, love more, if you love more and get hurt more, love even more, if you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.. - William Shakepeare
The gauge of how much you truly treasure sometihng or someone is not how happy you are with them, but how sad you are when you lose them. One grows distant form another not because of indifference but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer, a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it...
Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance; Staying in love is never by chance - always by choice; And faling out of love is never a choice - always a decision.
Attraction comeds to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. Listen: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen... We may meet someone by chance, but loving and staying with that someone is still a choice. Just because my eyes don't have tears, it doesn't mean that my heart does not cry. Just because you always see me strong, it does not mean that there is nothing wrong. Sometimes I choose to pretend I'm happy so I do not have to explain to people who would never even understand. Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why I am sad. It's never the tears that measure the pain, sometimes it's the smile we fake. A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes.. while everyone stil believes in the smile on your face. The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world, and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine. Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what we once had and lost. TIme can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done, because God gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us. So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now, because when they go, there won't be time to have them back.
In life, I have done every way of fighting. Heard every painful truth, been in every heartbreaking scene and felt every dreadful feeling. I thought going thru it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight at least to save alittle for myself.. But you know what's funny? It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all.. but still I can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day... I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just "right" but "real."
Love is like giving someone a gun, having them point at your heart. And trusting them to never pull the trigger. I do not know why well hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It'd like we are scared to lose what we do not really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is: "to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all." I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have, who could hold me tight, the one who will never let me go. till every drop of tears that I have had fallen, till every strength that I have has already passed out, then I can no longer move, as she or he lay me down in my bed sings me a lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me, I will never leave you, angel of mine..
Time may take us away, space may keep us apart, rumors and hurts may break us down, yet no matter where life leads us....
I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE AND I WILL NEVER STOP CARING!!
To all my friends
To all my friends.. thank you for being there.
this is for you.....
" When did we become friends? I can't really remember. It started in a simple way, but it grew in a very special place... Here in my HEART!"
FRIENDSHIP is something that can last forever. It has no vows, no rituals. it only needs people who are willing enough to care and make friendship a LIFETIME PROMISE! Real friendship is not affected by social status, distance or even time. With a real friend, youcan pick up arelationship where you left it, no matter how far you have been, or how long it's been since you were together. Real friendship isn't tarnished by money or lack of it, nor it is enanced by prestige and success. A real friend will always expect the best of you and will always stand her ground in defending you.
Silence is not the absence of sound. It's the presence of what sound can't express And in my silence.. "I'M HERE, MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE." We can never say how our friendship would go and how long we'd stay together. All I know is that even if we'd be miles apart, you'd remain as one of the special piece of puzzle completing my life. If everything would change and everything would fade, still I would not break the bond we've made. If you forget me, there's nothing I can do. But one thing is for sure... I'd still be here for you...
The best of friendship does not only show when you're together, It shows when you're apart yet you realize that despite distance and silence... Friendship still SURVIVES. It does not mean that I don't care when I prefer to be silent. Remember that presence is not measured on how often you talk, but on how often you listen. Don't worry; I'm just here... always. I may not have the widest arm to hug you when you have problem, I may not have the best shoulder for you to cry on when you need one.. but I have the biggest heart to keep you forever! You don't need to hear my VOICE to know that I CARE, and you don't have to feel my TOUCH to know that I'm here..You just have to know that somewhere... somehow i'm always here for you. Caring quietly! I may not be your most charming friend or someone special to be proud of, but for just keeping me in your life is enough reason for me to say...Thank you so much for letting me occupy a space! When the day come that you stop needing me... I will give you space and need you alone, But I'll never stop being here for you. Becasue I still want to remain as someone you never thought you'd still have... When you don't see something, it doesn't mean it's not there. I may not always be visible, but it doesn't take visibility for you to know... that I care.. Days end so quickly and time runs so fast... We never kmow how things would last. But one thing is for sure, that even without seeing each other... I'm just here, come what may.
I can never choose the people who will come into my life... But I can always choose the ones I wanted to stay forever... Those people I know worth keeping... like YOU! Call me up when your heart needs company... Take my hand when you feel alone. Turn to me when you need someone to lean on. Because till time runs out... I will always stay around. You've been good to me and I'm glad that have you around. If time comes that you feel you have not done anything good, THINK OF ME! And remember, that I do believe that you're worthy enough... to be treasured FOREVER. If ever I'll be gone tomorrow, hope you won't forget the things I did for you. Even if it's not enough to satisfy you, I just want you to know that in every single thing I did.. I've been a TRUE FRIEND to you. I may not always be there when you need me. But a part of me laughs when you're happy. And cries when you're sad. The other part stays strong enough to pray for you..
That's the best thing a far friend could do. Take care always...
this is for you.....
" When did we become friends? I can't really remember. It started in a simple way, but it grew in a very special place... Here in my HEART!"
FRIENDSHIP is something that can last forever. It has no vows, no rituals. it only needs people who are willing enough to care and make friendship a LIFETIME PROMISE! Real friendship is not affected by social status, distance or even time. With a real friend, youcan pick up arelationship where you left it, no matter how far you have been, or how long it's been since you were together. Real friendship isn't tarnished by money or lack of it, nor it is enanced by prestige and success. A real friend will always expect the best of you and will always stand her ground in defending you.
Silence is not the absence of sound. It's the presence of what sound can't express And in my silence.. "I'M HERE, MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE." We can never say how our friendship would go and how long we'd stay together. All I know is that even if we'd be miles apart, you'd remain as one of the special piece of puzzle completing my life. If everything would change and everything would fade, still I would not break the bond we've made. If you forget me, there's nothing I can do. But one thing is for sure... I'd still be here for you...
The best of friendship does not only show when you're together, It shows when you're apart yet you realize that despite distance and silence... Friendship still SURVIVES. It does not mean that I don't care when I prefer to be silent. Remember that presence is not measured on how often you talk, but on how often you listen. Don't worry; I'm just here... always. I may not have the widest arm to hug you when you have problem, I may not have the best shoulder for you to cry on when you need one.. but I have the biggest heart to keep you forever! You don't need to hear my VOICE to know that I CARE, and you don't have to feel my TOUCH to know that I'm here..You just have to know that somewhere... somehow i'm always here for you. Caring quietly! I may not be your most charming friend or someone special to be proud of, but for just keeping me in your life is enough reason for me to say...Thank you so much for letting me occupy a space! When the day come that you stop needing me... I will give you space and need you alone, But I'll never stop being here for you. Becasue I still want to remain as someone you never thought you'd still have... When you don't see something, it doesn't mean it's not there. I may not always be visible, but it doesn't take visibility for you to know... that I care.. Days end so quickly and time runs so fast... We never kmow how things would last. But one thing is for sure, that even without seeing each other... I'm just here, come what may.
I can never choose the people who will come into my life... But I can always choose the ones I wanted to stay forever... Those people I know worth keeping... like YOU! Call me up when your heart needs company... Take my hand when you feel alone. Turn to me when you need someone to lean on. Because till time runs out... I will always stay around. You've been good to me and I'm glad that have you around. If time comes that you feel you have not done anything good, THINK OF ME! And remember, that I do believe that you're worthy enough... to be treasured FOREVER. If ever I'll be gone tomorrow, hope you won't forget the things I did for you. Even if it's not enough to satisfy you, I just want you to know that in every single thing I did.. I've been a TRUE FRIEND to you. I may not always be there when you need me. But a part of me laughs when you're happy. And cries when you're sad. The other part stays strong enough to pray for you..
That's the best thing a far friend could do. Take care always...
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