JOE D Mango's Response

Arnel, there is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives. You could have done anything you wanted but Jerome's death was God's call. He works in ways that may sometimes be difficult to accept, but we should never question His judgment. He never took Jerome away, He just put an end to his painful suffering. Now, he is at peace with God and no longer in pain. You should be happy for him.

There was a time when you could not seem to compromise your career with your relationship with Jerome. You left him when he needed you the most and you came back when it was too late. You know you should have been with him when he had his attack but still you left him alone. It seemed like you had no choice, but you have an option. You have been silently carrying out this burden of guilt in your heart and I think this is the reason you are still lingering in pain.

You have to learn to forgive yourself for what you did and what you failed to do with Jerome. The only way to move on is to stop blaming God or yourself for Jerome's death. God did not take away the reason for your existence. he just spared you from more pain.

You can spend the rest of yourlife questioning God, probably finding a few answers and ending up being miserable. Many if us who have lost very special peoplecry over and over in pain. But we have to realize that one day, tears have to stop falling and the hurting has to end for we cannot be prisoners of the past forever.

Stop being bitter, Jerome does not want to see you this way. he wants you to be happy. You have lost someone you love but that does not mean that you cannot love again. Let us always remember that we can only move on if we accept the things that we do not want to happen, learn the things we do not want to know and let go of the memories we cannot live without.

I hope this helps.


Joe

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This is not the exact answer word per word of Joe but the same thought only.