Should I wait or not.....

I planned to return to you what you earlier gave to me. 'Yun nga lang, hindi pa rin tayo nagkikita eh... I think that it should not stay with me since I might have a hard time recovering from the tragedy that I am currently experiencing. But believe me, I am not returning it because I am angry or what. I just wanted to make it easier for me stand up after being pulled down.

Guess I made another wrong move. I should have never let myself be attached to someone I know a relationship I wanted is not possible. Assuming nga siguro ako. Pasensya naman.

I should have not had faith that it can happen with you; that you could be someone who really cares for me and that I will be someone important to you… someone on top of your list (of course, exception ‘yung parents and si God). I was really right, thinking that it would still be very early to build a bridge towards you. Sabi nga nila, matagal mag-mature ang isang tao. But I think I should not wait, for it will be another wrong move. If life is compared to a race, we are too far from each other that even if I slow down and just walk just to wait for you, and you to run as fast as you can just to catch up with me, guess it will still be a long wait.
But it is only you who can tell me if I really should wait. Lagi naman ako ready maghintay whenever you tell me. Promise, just tell me and I will wait for you to grow and be able to catch up. But if not, tell me as well. Tell me if you don’t want me to wait, whatever your reasons are. Nevertheless, I will still be your friend. ‘Yun nga lang, baka may magbago na… but I will try my best to really bring back the past friendship that has gone way far now for me.

Sana kasi nakakapag-usap tayo ng maayos. Ayaw ko sana na lagi ako nagtatampo sa iyo nang dahil sa masyado akong sensitive. I am really sorry at the times I made you feel bad.

I just wanted you to know that I am happy that I have known you and that you became part of my life. I really hope that I had been a very good person to you if not a friend.

Learn to face the problems in your life... do not try finding an escape, thinking it might help you solve the problem. Fact is, it's only going to make things worse...

But I really hope that the journey for both of us will not end here… I really wanted to wait, but if it will not do any good to me, just tell me… just tell me what to do. Should I wait or should I not? ;c