Friday, December 26, 2008

A friend...

What is a friend?

A friend is someone you hold dear: Someone who is always there, thorugh thick ang thin; Someone who is only a phone call away

A friend is someone you can trust; someone who will guard your deepest secrets; Someone who will never let you down.

A friend is someone you can feel comfortable with: Someone you can sit silently beside, without conversation; Someone you do not need to fill quiet moments with

A friend is someone who can keep you grounded: Someone eho can gelp you see through your obstacles; Someone to shoulder you through life's trials

A friend is someone you can choose wisely, For a friend is your own mirror image: Someone to compliment your own self; Someone who indicates who you are as a person.

A friend.... is what you are to me.

With you, its all about voiceless communication - always knowing exactly what to say, but never actually having to say it. When no one seems to be listening, you hear. When I hurt but dont show it, you know. When I turn away to hide my tears, you see. When I feel like I can't get through to anyone, you understand. Your eyes glow just for me, and I know you're proud. You flash your magical, healing smile my way, and I now everything will be alright. You know everything there is to know about me. You know what worries me, what keeps me up at night, and what shames me so badly that I can't share it with anyone. More importantly, though none of these things bother you. You've restored my faith in peopleand proved that there is a thing called true friendship.

That's why I'm very lucky to have you

This friendship we share is so precious to me, i hope it grows and flourishes and lasts unto infinity. You are so extra special to me and so this to you I really must tell: You are my one true friend, My Guardian Angel. One friendship is one-in-a-million so lets hold on to it and each other. We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away for there will never be another. Thank you so much. I really appreciate the things that you've done to me, even the simpliest...

I'll be there....

I'll be there. When you need a shoulder to cry on, remember that I have a warm embrace, easy to offer comfort. When you think I'm too tough, remember that which does not kill you makes me stronger. When you need a friend to listen, remember that I am here for you, ALWAYS. When you doubt me, Remember that I once knelt at your feet, washing them in service to you. When you lose faith in yourself, remember that I never did, nor ever will.

Hope our friendship will last forever... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Somewhere.... somehow... someday...

It's over. He's gone.

Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems leeft undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship, one of the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking crystal because you will never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bitternsweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty wihtout the other. I dont know if it's calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heal all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "... and they live happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstance beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.

It's over. He's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.

Somewhere.... somehow... someday...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Art of Letting Go...

How do you let go of a love that you ever wanted from the start? How do you handle a situation where in you need to let go of someone special? We are all expected to loved and be loved... but are we willing to let it slip away even it feels so right on us?

It can hurt us so bad...that we are willing to do everything to get love back. We can do anything, any means, the question is... "is that someone aslo willing to go back? or you are just holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone that is also holding on to someone else?"

Reality really hurts. We begun to think that life was so unfair, but no matter how hard it is to let go, we just have to, because if that's love's really destined for us, in time, it will be back. You will then realize that lot of people cares and loves you more than he did.

By time you learn to move on and let go, you'll find life more satisfying... you'll find many reasons why you should go on living. Because when you are stock with the pain you can do nothing but cry, and hurt yourself more, and if you have finally moved on, without bitterness in your heart, you'll be thanksful... because you had him once and he somehow make your life filled with love and joy. Or if not... you can clearly understand why did it have to end. If your path has cross again, you can learn to forgive and start another thing called friendship.

Things would be better again, even if you both, are taking seperate paths, life is still full of mysteries, you can never know what's really for you unless you have the courage to take the road of life. It is still great to love and get hurt than never loved and be loved at all. Take life slowly, never rush love because it will always find a way to reach you, it would always fall into the right place and time, and that no matter how painful your past love is, it doesnt mean it would always be like that. Remember that no matter how hard you hold on into someone, if it wasn't meant for you, it just wouldn't be.

Pain is part of loving... wihtout it, you'll never know that oyu are true, that you are not as numb as he thought, and when you find someone new, make sure to leave something for yourself. So when things are turning out sour, you will not be hurt badly, and won't take you eternity just to let go. Learning the true meaning of love letting go, moving on and being strong, would eventually make us a better person.

I have moved on and happy right now, cause I have learned the art of letting go...

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Art of Letting Go... Again?

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never meant to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the world, it's the beginning of new life. You never leave someone behind, you take part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind. I made a choice to finally go because I cannot stand the pain. It's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again. I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt, pictures can never replace being there memories forget the heard times, words can never replace feelings.

Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love to find out if there is really something there. Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if there's really anything there to hold on to. Sometimes you won't let go of love. More times, love won't let go of you. Maybe some people are just passing through. It's like some people justcome through our lives to bring us soemthingt: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and that's why they're here... you'll have that gift forever.

I dont want to leave but sometimes it's better to go. Somehow I know we'll meet again. Not sure quite where and I dont know just when. You're in my heart, so until then... wanna smile, wanna cry, saying goodbye.

Maybe some people just are not meant to be in our lives forever. I cannot erase the past, but I must let it go.

Thanks for everything, I will miss you!!!

How Can I Let Go?

I pretended to be happy even though i felt breaking inside. I tried to fake smile but gloom was written all over my eyes. It is hard to see someone I use to love moving on with his life while i'm all alone, left behind. I used to think that he was the one for me, we're two different people enticed into the magical power of love.

Everyday was so wonderful, as if loved smiled at us. Everything seem to be perfect but why did things suddenly go wrong? Things change. He started to ignore me. he never listened. he never cared. I was crying out loud but he was too deaf to hear it. My world crumbled upon seeing things fell apart but he was drifting away into his own world where i was forbidden to go. I was left hanging while he was souring high not minding me at all. It is hard to let go of someone i promised to love forever, but how can i hold on to a relationship not knowing where to go or who to follow?

I've already mastered the trades in the game of love except the art of letting go which makes me a neophyte. My knees weaken and my heart beats like a crazy tattoo everytime we cross each other's path. There's that look in his soulful eyes which resolves my defenses and make me fall all over again. I tried to regain my composure by convincing myself that it is over even it deliberately breaks my heart into pieces. Inside i am hoping that it would still be us again but i know it will be a shattered ilusion.

Letting go means you love the best, they say... but how can i let go if loving him is the only thing i've wanted?

I LOVE YOU.... GOODBYE!!!!

love is patient, kind. It never gets jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense. It is not sinful.

-- from the Book of Corinthians

There is one happiness in life... it is "to love and be loved." To love is the most wonderful thing a person can ever experience in life, a moment that lasts forever and yet, the hardest part of loving is to know when to let go and knowing when to say goodbye. Letting go doesn't mean you have to stop loving them, it only means that you let the person find his happiness... expecting nothing in return.

I wanted to say "I would like to spend the rest of my life with you".

But oftentimes, we say goodbye to the one we love even we dont want to, not because we stop caring them, but sometimes GOODBYE is the painful way of saying I LOVE YOU.

It is hard to let go someone who has touched your life, but it hurts more to let go someone who has never been yours yet, changed your life the most.

Now i realized how hard to let go someone whom you loved the most but have to let you go!

Thank you for making me a part of your life.

I LOVE YOU GOODBYE!!!


-- created while listening to Celine Dion's "I Love You Goodbye"

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I Don't Want You To Go, But I Have To

Sometimes... not too often... but sometimes... I get hit with the memory of how much you meant to me, just when I thought I was finally okay with forgetting. Sometimes, I would give anything imaginable to be able to make you understand, to have one more chance to make you know how much you meant to be able to feel complete; but I smile through it all. I wish I had the guts to walk away from what we have, but I can't because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. I want you to be happy, but how can I be happy knowing that I'm not the one making you smile? I was left in the cold by YOU, heartbroken and confused. The only words you hurt me with were the one you didn't use.

When all this LOVE stuff came to an end, I realized what I had missed; having you as a friend. I shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are, but I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before because I'm not supposed to love you anymore. What makes me stay when my world fall apart? What makes me try one more time when its not in my heart? At the end of the rope, when I can't find any hope, I still look at you and say I just can't walk away, tell me... WHAT MAKES ME STAY?

When you love someone, they become a part of you, maybe that's why when you lose someone, it hurts because it is like you are losing a part of you. I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I feel and you still wouldn't understand. Now I leave you without a sound, except my heart shattering as it hits the ground. I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care. I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do. I'm sorry I can't help myself.

You know, I changed. I am no longer the same person I was before. I don't know what is different but I know I am not the same and I know I will never be again. I cry because I know you don't feel the same way I do, I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I'm going to be crying forever. I always know you're gonna be with someone else, but deep inside there's a little part of me that likes to pretend that you are waiting for me. It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

I really miss you so much. I'm always here for you.. I know you'll ne happier without me around. I'll cherish the memory that we had.

***

I made this while listening to the song "It's Over Now" by Kyla

Thursday, June 26, 2008

My life in Misery

I’ve been living my life in a lie.

I’ve been keeping skeletons on my closet that only I and my few friends knew. I almost ruined my life. I felt like I haven’t done any good things in my life. My brother found it out, and told me, “SANA KAHIT MINSAN MAGING KUYA KA NAMAN!”

I know how much hatred my brother felt towards me. It’s been months that we are not talking to each other. I’m afraid that time will come, he will blackmail me. Until this day come.

If there might be the best decision I’ve done from the day I fell in love with him… this is when he asked me to be his girl for the third time, and finally I found the courage to say NO!

Half a year since I did not see and hear any news from him, no final talk, no formal break up. He left me just when I needed him the most. If he only knew how much pain it caused, how much tears I shed, sleepless nights that I keep on thinking about him. I’ve been so hopeless to see him wishing that he would come back. But it took six months before I finally had a chance to talk to him and it was all a coincidence. Now that he’s asking me back, give him at least a smallest chance to prove to me that what have he done was wrong, but finally I had the courage to tell him: “What for? I have heard all those lines before; did you keep any of your promises?”

He asked for forgiveness, I told him I did... let destiny bring us back if we are really meant for each other. I’ve lost everything because of him, and I might lose myself if I will let him annoyed me again.

I must admit, I still love him that’s why even how much pain he gave me, how sarcastically he told me that he doesn’t know my worth, still I cannot stop myself to forgive him, because my love for him kills all the anger and bitterness I felt for him.

But I don’t want to give myself false hopes, that this time; he is real… but not this time, not until I had found something new into myself… I want to live my life to the fullest.

I want to be happy. Before, I told myself, “I will be happy if I was with him.” But now, would I still want to be with the person who hurt me so badly? The reason why my conscience is killing me, and the worst, I could not accept to myself that once in my life, I have forgotten to love myself.

I don’t know why these things happen… I am in misery. If only I could turn back time.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Life is a continuous journey

The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.

Let your mind start a journey thru a strange new worls. Leave all your thoughts of the world you knew before. let your soul take you where you long to be. Close your eyes. Let your spirit start to soar, and you'll live as you've never lived before. And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

Life is a progress, and not a station. Life is a journey - you never know what may be your next destination. The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it.

For a long time, it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there were always some obstacles in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin.

At last, it dawned on me that these obstacled were my life. The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.

Life is a continuous journey.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

YOU

There's always that one special person that no matter what they do, you cannot let them go...

All she want is one guy to prove to her that they are not all the same. Once you love someone that person is forever part of YOU. I wanna be the GIRL that he points to and says THAT's HER. I want to be the only hand you ever need to HOLD
If I did anything right in my life, it was when I gave my heart to you. When people ask me if i like you, I say NO, because I LOVE YOU and you are the one. I don't want to dream of you, I want to be with YOU...

Love has several definitions like: Love is like a bar of soap, once you think you got it, it slips away; Love is like war, Easy to start but hard to end, and impossible to forget. My heart aches whenever I think of you. He has the key to my heart. If we could only turn back time, but I guess we'll never know

I miss how we kissed, I missed the memories, I miss how I loved you, I miss your hand in mine, I MISS YOU. I play the same old song over and over again because it reminds me of you. You will never find anyone who will love you, the way I did and always will. Whatever happens, you are my one and only. Whatever you say, whatever you do, whatever you think I will always love you. I will promise I will never forget the first time we kissed or the day we met and said I LOVE YOU.I hold you inside my heart.. hoping you won't break it apart. The sky may fall and the stars may too, but in the end, I will still love you.

I love him, but he loves her.

Its funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. A tear falls forever inside a broken heart. Maybe I am not over him.. but then again, maybe I don't want to be... I want to spend forever in his arms
If we could only turn back time, but I guess we'll never know

How can you expect me to move on when you won't give my heart back? Can't you see that my love for you is TEARING ME APART? You hurt me so much when all I ever did was to LOVE you!!!!!!

I love you more than you knows. You asked what was wrong and I smiled and said NOTHING then I turned around and whispered EVERYTHING.

Please forgive me......

Once upon a time, I was falling in love... and now, I am falling apart. I know I'm not the prettiest girl alive and I know I'm not the smartest girl alive, But I know that no one can love you as much as mine

Maybe one day you will think of me how I thought of you, and one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you.Was it so wrong to LOVE you, that you had to hurt me so bad? As what other people used to say to me, "Never make somebody your everything cause when they are gone, you've got nothing."

Why won't you love me like I love you?
You once said you loved me, what happened?
You left nothing.
Spare me just 3 last words is all she heard

Too bad I cannot feel the love I want from YOU....

Friday, May 9, 2008

It's time to say Goodbye

I hope you know how much I like you
How much I care and misses you
You're the only one for me, you're every breath I breathe,
For all of my life, it's only you I need

Every time that we were together
I'm wishing that time wil just stop forever
So that we will never be apart
And promisde that we'll be in each other's heart

I'm your friend, that's all I gotta be
Everytime you have problem, you count on me
But in doing that thing, I hope you can feel
How much I value you so much and that's for real

I know it's impossible for me to have you
You're like a star form above, and it's hard for me to reach you
You want somebody else who did not like you,
Still I'm always here and always be there for you

I wonder how long will I tkae this pain,
Of seeing you loving somebady and make me wait in vain
But I can't blame you for doing it,
cause you did not know what my feeling is

But I think it is better for you not to know
Cause we might loose our friendship if I did tell you so
I would rather keep and try stopping it
I know its hard but for the better, I'll do it.

I know in time, I will be moving on
Forget this love and stop hloding on
But when you realize you want me to be part of you
Just tell and I'll bring it all back to you

Now I think it's time to say goodbye
To this feeling i felt inside
Though saying goodbye is hard thing to do
Hope I can stop myself from loving you.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

One day I will get over you

I only have two words for you... I'M DONE!!! After everything iI've done for you, every chance that I gave you and yet you still break my heart... BUT ITS OVER. Finally, I've realized I don't deserve this and honestly you don't deserve me. Yeah, I still love you and I probably will for a long time. But I can't stay here anymore. It hurts too much. I guess this is... MOVING ON ...

I guess I'm tired of being the last thing on your mind. I should have known from the start, you'd go and break my heart. you took my love and threw it away as if it were nothing. to me, you are everything but to you.. Im just another meantime girl. you hurt me more than I deserve. How can you be so cruel? I love you more that you deserve. Why am I such a fool? Little did I know, you were just another dead end road made with pretty bits and broken dreams. Now i believe it when people say love is blind coz I must have been blind to love a person like you. it finally hit me that you did not care when you walked away and never looked back. maybe if i had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different, and my heart would not be breaking right now. I wanna do exactly what you did to me, lead you on, make you fall for me, then just let you go... effortlessly.

Suddenly, I'm hating myself for everything I've ever felt for you..

Someday I wish I could go back and erase the day I met you... but then I will never regret loving you, only believing you love me too. I made a mistake. Thinking you were my world, You won't get away with this... You messed with the wrong girl. Slandering my name just for your own gain... Dream on honey, I'm gonna make you feel my pain...

Thank you for ripping my heart out.. attemping on it and breaking ity in half. Now I know how much you care. Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how great it will be when the right one comes along. There is no medication for this illness, no known cure other than TIME. Maybe someday, I'll get back my heart, maybe someday, I will get back my pride. Maybe somehere down the road, I'll forget to remember you. One day you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away. And one day, you will realize you could have been with me. I hope someday you'll realize what a fool you were to let someone like me slip from your grip. And that you'll see that the one you've been looking for was the one who set you free. One day, I will be able to look at you in the eye without feeling the pain you've caused. One day, I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hoild your hand...

One day. I'll get over you....

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Ikaw ang Superhero ng Buhay Ko

Ikaw Ang Superhero Ng Buhay Ko (Reprise)

Matuyo man ang dagat at matunaw man ang buwan
Hindi ka ipagpapalit kanino man
Ang isip ko man ay naguguluhan
Ang damdamin ko’y aking pinagkakatiwalaan

Ikaw ang superhero ng buhay ko, ikaw…
Hindi ka man lumilipad, tinangay mo sa langit ang puso ko
Nais kong sumama saan ka man magpunta
Hawakan mo ako… maglalakbay tayo

Huwag mong babanggitin ang salitang pag-ibig
Ilang ulit nang nasunog aking puso
Ang pangakong iyong binibitawan
Masarap mang pakinggan... mahirap paniwalaan

Ikaw ang superhero ng buhay kong, ikaw…
Naliligaw ka man ngayon, ikaw naman ay aking natagpuan
Halika na sa piling ko, kita’y iuuwi
Dito sa bisig ko ika’y mahimbing

Ikaw ang ang superhero ng buhay ko, ikaw
Pag-ibig mo’t pagmamahal walang kinikilalang kulay o pangalan
Nais kong matutong magmahal ng tulad mo
Turuan mo ako, turuan mo ako...

Ikaw ang superhero ng buhay kong ito
Ikaw ang Krystala at Darna ko
Ang Sugo at Mulawin ko, Lastikman at Gagamboy
Si Volta at Kapten Barbel ko
Ang Super G ng buhay ko...
Ikaw ang superhero ng buhay ko!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Zsa Zsa and Queen Femina

Magdasal dasal ka na Zaturnnah
prepare to meet your doom
this place is too small for us
the simply is no rule

Amazonistas, come forth come forth
transmorphication

QUEEN FEMINA
hindi pantay ang pagtingin nila sa atin
alam kong alam mo yan zaturnnah
ilang beses ka nilang iniwan
ilang beses ka pang sinaktan

ZSA ZSA
ako naman ay marunong makalimot
kaya pa ng puso ko ang magpatawad
kung sila man ay nagkamali
lalong mas mali ang katuwiran nyo
baluktot na katuwiran nyo ang lalong mas mali

QUEEN FEMINA
their sins are unforgivable
you know that you and I
the souls beyond redemption
they've meant deserve to die

ang puso mo'y puno ng galit
ng poot, pagkasuklam
nagkakalat ka ng lagim
ginugulo ang sanlibutan

prepare to meet your doom (hindi mo kaya si zaturnnah)
my foolishness are destructive (marami na akong pinatumba)
bid to your prince charming goodbye (ako si zsa zsa zaturnnah) (dadaan ka sa ibabaw ng aking bangkay)prepare to meet your doom zaturnnah
(dudurugin kita kapalit man ang aking buhay)there could only be one, that's I (maghukay ka ng iyong libingan)
malapit na ang iyong katapusan

Your hollow threats are useless
shet up! neknek mo!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

My Heart Will Go On Tagalog Version

Tuwing gabi sa panaginip
Kita kita, dama kita
Dito ko alam na ika'y tutuloy

MAlayo pahalang sa distansiya
At espasyo sa pagitan
Ipinakita mo na ika'y tutuloy

Malapit, malayo
Saan ka man naroon
Alam ko na puso mo'y tutuloy
Minsan pa binuksan ang pinto
Nandito ka sa akinng puso
At puso ko'y tutuloy tuloy


Minsan ang pagibig, nanghihipo
At tatagal habang buhay
At di bibitaw hangga't di tayo isa
Pagibig ay nung ika'y inibig
Minsan tunay na hinawakan
Sa aking buhay tayo ay tutuloy

Malapit, malayo
Saan ka man naroon
Alam ko na puso mo'y tutuloy
Minsan pa binuksan ang pinto
Nandito ka sa akinng puso
At puso ko'y tutuloy tuloy

Nandito ka walang katatakutan
Alam ko na puso mo ay tutuloy
Habang buhay ganito lang tayo
Ligtas ka sa aking puso
At puso ko ay tutuloy tuloy

My Heart Will Go On Italian Version

Il Mio Cuore Va

Ogni notte in sogno
Ti vedo, ti sento
E cosi io so che ci sei
Tu, da spazi immensi
Da grandi distanze
Sei venuta e so che ci sei

Qui, la, dovunque sarai
Sento forte il mio cuore che va
Ancor la porta aprirai
Per entrar nel mio cuore
E il cuore mio va e va

Per, la nostra vita
Vivrà questo amore
Se seremo insieme io e te
Io ti ro sempre amata,
ti fo Stretta dauvero e vivra
Per sempre il mio amor

Qui, la, dovunque sarai
Sento forte il mio cuore che va
Ancor la porta aprirai
Per entrar nel mio cuore
E il cuore mio va e va

Sei qui, paura non ho
Sente che batte forte il mio cuor
Sarà per sempre cosi ti
Protegge il mio cuore
E il cuore mio va e va

My Heart Will Go On Trodacao Version

Toda noite, em meus sonhos
Eu vejo voce, sinto voce
Que e agora que sei que voce continua

Mesmo com toda a distancia
e espacos entre nos
Voce veio para mostrar que vai continuar

Perto, Longe, e em qualquer lugar que voce esteja
Eu acredito que o coracao realmente continua
Mais uma vez quando voce abre a porta
E voce esta aqui no meu coracao
E meu coracao vai continuar mais e mais

O amor pode nos tocar uma vez e durar por
uma vida inteira
E nao deixar ir embora ate nos tornarmos um

O amor existiu quando amei voce
Um momento real em que abracei voce
Voce sempre dai continuar na minha vida

Perto, Longe, e em qualquer lugar que voce esteja
Eu acredito que o coracao realmente continua
Mais uma vez quando voce abre a porta
E voce esta aqui no meu coracao
E meu coracao vai continuar mais e mais

Voce esta aqui, nao tem nada a temer
E eu sei que meu coracao vai continuar
Nos vamos ficar para sempre desse jeito
Voca esta salvo no meu coracao
E meu coracao vai continuar mais e mais

Sunday, March 2, 2008

I dont wanna feel tha pain in my heart

Where are you? I can't find you... I miss you

They say it makes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. I don't want to DREAM of you... I want to be with YOU. I admit I never knew *happiness* then YOU came along... Regardless of our outcome, I am thankful for this experience because never before has my *HEART SMILED*. I love that you love me. And in case you are wondering, you are everything to me

I miss you

no more tears to cry, i want to be with you forever. Its funny how someone can break your heart and you still love them with all the little pieces. Its not much, but its all i have.

Love... we think about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it we search for it and when we discover it we dont know what to do with it. we fear losing it. it is our source of pleasure and pain but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. it's a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.

Sorry I am not perfect. you dont mean anything to me... you mean EVERYTHING to me. Im not supposed to love you, im not supposed to care, im not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. im not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do. im sorry i cant help myself cause im in love with you!

Im not a perfect girl. my hair does not always stay in place and I spill things a lot. im pretty clumsy and sometimes i have a broekn heart. my friends and i sometimes fight and maybe some days nothing goes right. but whe i think about it and take a step back, i remember how truly amazing life truly is and that maybe, just maybe, i like being IMPERFECT...

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be anything but happy.

I cannot sleep cause my pillow is wet. Ive got dreams in hidden places, extra smiles for when im blue, but that special place in my heart, im saving just for you.

i want to be remembered as the girl who smiles even though her heart is broken and the one who can always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighter her own

Coz i dont wanna feel the pain in my heart.....

Does or can sadness overcome happiness?

Does or can saddness overcome happiness?? some may say yes some says no... or maybe it depends... for me yes... that saddness can overcome happiness... mas mabigat ung saddness n nrramdaman ko... uu happy ako becoz of him... simply bcoz of him... pero minsan nttabunn ng saddness ung hapines..

uu nkikita ng mga tao n masayaka... nktawa... nkngiti... parang wallang problema... but behind those laughters... ur just hidding the pain...uu ganon ako but sometimes when u just can't take it... all you know is that you got to the point that u breakdown... that u jst fall... broken into pieces

that the joy is gone and u jst felt like ur alone... alone to face all those pain... and face all those sufferings... all i can do is just cry... cry till it all run out... the the nxt day... happy k ulit... well ganyan ako... every night... sometimes i feel like stupid crying... cry baby... well its better to cry to tell ur hurt... and para mailbas mo ung sama ng loob mo... gnun lng nmn diba kaso muka kng tanga mgisa kng umiiyak... pero u just can't help it kc wala k nmn mkusap eh... kundi sarili mo... iniicip mo lht ng problema mo... sinasarili mo lhat ng unanswered questions... n gumugulo sa buhay mo... n d mo sure if massagot b or what...

kaya minsan sa gbi mgiicip icip ako then bgla n lng tutulo luha ko... ganun n b tlga ako klungkot ha... :(( to the point n bgla n lng naiiyak=))... writting this makes me cry... when would come a night na hindi ako iiyak bcoz of problems... that comes.. kelan kya drting ung time hindi ako malulungkot... ng gnito... keln kaya drting ung time na happyness will overcome saddness?? kelan ha?

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Titanic Memorable Quotes

Last February 10 and 17 I watched Titanic in RPN 9. I quoted some of the lines in it.

Cal Hockley: God, not those finger paintings again. They certainly were a waste of money.
Rose: The difference between Cal's taste in art and mine is that I have some. They're fascinating. It's like being inside a dream or something. There's truth but no logic.

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Fabrizio: I can see the Statue of Liberty already!... Very small, of course.

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Molly Brown: You shine up like a new penny.

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Rose: I am not a foreman in one of your mills that you can command. I am your fiancée.
Cal Hockley: My fian... my fiancée! Yes, you are, and my wife. My wife in practice if not yet by law, so you will honor me. You will honor me the way a wife is required to honor a husband. Because I will not be made a fool, Rose. Is this in any way unclear?
Rose: No.

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Jack: That's the one good thing about Paris: there's a lot of girls willing to take their clothes off.

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[Rose shows Jack her engagement ring]
Jack: God! Look at that thing! You would've gone straight to the bottom.

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Jack: Don't do it.
Rose: Stay back! Don't come any closer!
Jack: Come on, just give me your hand. I'll pull you back over.
Rose: No, stay where you are! I mean it! I'll let go!
Jack: [He approaches slowly, gesturing to his cigarette to show that he is approaching merely to throw it over the side into the ocean] No, you won't.
Rose: What do you mean, "No, I won't"? Don't presume to tell me what I will and will not do, you don't know me!
Jack: Well, you woulda done it already.
Rose: You're distracting me! Go away!
Jack: I can't. I'm involved now. You let go, and I'm, I'm 'onna have to jump in there after you.
Rose: Don't be absurd. You'd be killed!
Jack: I'm a good swimmer.
Rose: The fall alone would kill you.
Jack: It would hurt. I'm not saying it wouldn't. Tell you the truth, I'm a lot more concerned about that water being so cold.
[pause. She looks down at the water. Jack is slowly removing his boots]
Rose: How cold?
Jack: Freezing. Maybe a couple degrees over. You ever, uh, you ever been to Wisconsin?
Rose: What?
Jack: Well, they have some of the coldest winters around. I grew up there, near Chippewa Falls. I remember when I was a kid, me and my father, we went ice fishing out on Lake Wissota. Ice fishing is, you know, where you...
Rose: I know what ice fishing is!
Jack: Sorry. You just seem like, you know, kind of an indoor girl. Anyway, I, uh, I fell through some thin ice; and I'm telling you, water that cold, like right down there...
[He gestures with his chin down toward the Atlantic Ocean]
Jack: ... it hits you like a thousand knives stabbing you all over your body. You can't breathe. You can't think. At least, not about anything but the pain. Which is why I'm not looking forward to jumping in there after you.
[They exchange glances]
Jack: Like I said, I don't have a choice. I guess I'm kinda hoping you'll come back over the railing, an' get me off the hook here.
Rose: You're crazy.
Jack: That's what everybody says but, with all due respect, Miss, I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here. Come on. C'mon, give me your hand. You don't want to do this.
[She reaches her hand back, he reaches his forward, and he helps her back onto the deck]
Jack: Whew! I'm Jack Dawson.
Rose: Rose De Witt Bukater.
Jack: I'm gonna have to get you to write that one down.

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Rose: [letting go of Jack's hand] I'll never let go, Jack. I promise.
[she kisses his hand and watches him sink, almost falling apart before she finally climbs back into the water to call the lifeboat back]

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Jack: Where to, Miss?
Rose: To the stars.

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Smith: Clear.
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Yes. I don't think I've ever seen such a flat calm.
Smith: Like a mill pond, not a breath of wind.
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: It will make the bergs harder to see... with no breaking water at the base.
Smith: Hmm. Well, I'm off. Mantain speed and heading, Mr. Lightoller.
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Yes, sir.

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[first lines]
Brock Lovett: Thirteen meters; you should see it.
Brock Lovett: [seeing the shipwreck come into view for the first time] OK; take her up and over the bow rail.

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Jack: [waving to people as the TITANIC sets off] Goodbye!
Fabrizio: You know somebody?
Jack: Of course not! That's the point! Goodbye, I'll miss you!
Fabrizio: Goodbye! I'm gonna never forget you!

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Rose: I don't know the steps!
Jack: Neither do I! Just go with it!

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Rose: It's so unfair.
Ruth: Of course it's unfair. We're women. Our choices are never easy.

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[climbing an on-deck staircase to the stern as the ship is about to sink]
Male Passenger: Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...
Jack: You want to walk a little faster through that valley there?

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Rose: I don't see what all of the fuss is about. It doesn't look any bigger than the Mauritania.
Cal Hockley: You can be blasé about some things, Rose, but not about Titanic. It's over a hundred feet longer than the Mauritania and far more luxurious.

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Jack: Well, yes, ma'am, I do... I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count.

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Molly Brown: [on seeing the upended Titanic] God Almighty.

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Jack: Rose, you're no picnic, all right? You're a spoiled little brat, even, but under that, you're the most amazingly, astounding, wonderful girl, woman that I've ever known...
Rose: Jack, I...
Jack: No, let me try and get this out. You're ama- I'm not an idiot, I know how the world works. I've got ten bucks in my pocket, I have no-nothing to offer you and I know that. I understand. But I'm too involved now. You jump, I jump remember? I can't turn away without knowing you'll be all right... That's all I want.
Rose: Well, I'm fine... I'll be fine... really.
Jack: Really? I don't think so. They've got you trapped, Rose. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but... sooner or later that fire that I love about you, Rose... that fire's gonna burn out...
Rose: It's not up to you to save me, Jack.
Jack: You're right... only you can do that.

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Old Rose: 1,500 people went into the sea... when Titanic sank from under us... there were twenty boats floating nearby... and only one came back. Six were saved from the water... myself included. *Six*. Out of 1,500. Afterward, the 700 people in the boats had nothing to do but wait... wait to die... wait to live... wait for an absolution... that would never come.

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Lewis Bodine: We never found anything on Jack... there's no record of him at all.
Old Rose: No, there wouldn't be, would there? And I've never spoken of him until now... Not to anyone... Not even your grandfather... A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets. But now you know there was a man named Jack Dawson and that he saved me... in every way that a person can be saved. I don't even have a picture of him. He exists now... only in my memory.

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Bert Cartmell: It's a big boat, huh?
Cora Cartmell: Daddy, it's a ship!
Bert Cartmell: You're right.

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Rose: The last thing I need is another picture of me looking like a porcelain doll.

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Jack: I'm the king of the world!

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[Upon boarding the ship with Fabrizio]
Jack: We are the luckiest sons of bitches in the world, you know that?

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Ismay: So you've not lit the last four boilers then?
Smith: No, I do not see the need. We are making excellent time.
Ismay: The press knows the size of Titanic, now I want them to marvel at her speed, too. We must give them something new to print. And the maiden voyage of Titanic must make headlines!

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Ruth: So this is the ship they say is unsinkable.
Cal Hockley: It is unsinkable. God himself could not sink this ship.

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Rose: Teach me to ride like a man.
Jack: And chew tobacco like a man.
Rose: And spit like a man!
Jack: What, they didn't teach you that in finishing school?

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Cal Hockley: Where are you going? To him? To be a whore to a gutter rat?
Rose: I'd rather be his whore than your wife.

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Jack: This is crazy.
Rose: I know. It doesn't make any sense. That's why I trust it.

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[as Jack sketches her in the nude]
Rose: I believe you are blushing, Mr. Big Artiste. I can't imagine Monsieur Monet blushing.
Jack: He does landscapes.

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Molly Brown: [to the group who are dining at the same table] Hey, uh, who thought of the name Titanic? Was it you, Bruce?
Ismay: Yes, actually. I wanted to convey sheer size, and size means stability, luxury, and above all, strength.
Rose: Do you know of Dr. Freud, Mr. Ismay? His ideas about the male preoccupation with size might be of particular interest to you.
Ruth: [whispering] What's gotten into you?
Rose: Excuse me.
[She rises and leaves]
Ruth: I do apologize.
Molly Brown: She's a pistol, Cal! Hope you can handle her.
Cal Hockley: Well, I may have to start minding what she reads from now on, won't I, Mrs. Brown?
Ismay: Freud? Who is he? Is he a passenger?

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Ruth: Tell us of the accommodations in steerage, Mr. Dawson. I hear they are quite good on this ship.
Jack: The best I've seen, ma'am. Hardly any rats.

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[being offered a lifebelt]
Benjamin Guggenheim: No, thank you. We are dressed in our best and are prepared to go down as gentlemen. But, we would like a brandy.

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Tommy Ryan: Music to drown by. Now I know I'm in first class.

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Thomas Andrews: The pumps will buy you time, but minutes only. From this moment on, no matter what we do, Titanic will founder.
Ismay: But this ship can't sink!
Thomas Andrews: She is made of iron, sir. I assure you, she can. And she *will*. It is a mathematical certainty.

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Tommy Ryan: That's typical. First class dogs come down here to take a shite.
Jack: That's so we know where we rank in the scheme of things.
Tommy Ryan: Like we could forget.

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Ruth: Will the lifeboats be seated according to class? I hope they aren't too crowded.
Rose: Oh mother, shut up! Don't you understand? The water is freezing and there aren't enough boats. Not enough by half. Half the people on this ship are going to die.
Cal Hockley: Not the better half.
Molly Brown: Come on Ruth, first-class seats are right up here.
Cal Hockley: You know, it's a pity I didn't keep that drawing. It'll be worth a lot more by morning.
Rose: You unimaginable bastard!

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Cal Hockley: You're a good liar.
Jack: Almost as good as you.

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Old Rose: I saw my whole life as if I had already lived it. An endless parade of parties and cotillions, yachts and polo matches. Always the same narrow people, the same mindless chatter. I felt like I was standing at a great precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who cared... or even noticed.

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Rose: I know what you must be thinking. "Poor little rich girl, what does she know about misery?"
Jack: No, no, that's not what I was thinking. What I was thinking was, what could've happened to this girl to make her feel she had no way out?

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Rose: J.J., Madeline, this is Jack Dawson.
Astor: Hello, Jack. Are you of the Boston Dawsons?
Jack: No, the, uh, Chippewa Falls Dawsons, actually.
Astor: Oh yes...

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Rose: I love you, Jack.
Jack: Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes.
Rose: I'm so cold.
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, but not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?
Rose: I can't feel my body.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Never let go.
Rose: I'll never let go. I'll never let go, Jack.

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Cal Hockley: [stuffs coat with money and diamond] I make my own luck.
Lovejoy: [shows gun] So do I.

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Brock Lovett: Dive six, here we are again on the deck of Titanic. Two and a half miles down. Three-thousand, eight hundred and twenty-one meters. The pressure outside is three thousand pounds per square inch. These windows are nine inches thick, and if they go, it's sayonara in two micro-seconds.

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Jack: I don't know about you, but I intend on writing a strongly worded letter to the White Star Line about all of this.

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[Looking at a salvaged hand mirror]
Old Rose: This was mine. How extraordinary! And it looks the same as it did last time I saw it... The reflection's changed a bit.

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Old Rose: It's been 84 years, and I can still smell the fresh paint. The china had never been used. The sheets had never been slept in. Titanic was called the Ship of Dreams, and it was. It really was.

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Tommy Ryan: Ah, forget it, boyo. You're as like to have angels fly out your arse as get next to the likes of her.

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[last lines]
Brock Lovett: Three years, I've thought of nothing except Titanic; but I never got it... I never let it in.

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Lewis Bodine: Incredible. There's Smith and he's standing there and he's got the iceberg warning in his fucking hand, excuse me, his hand, and he's ordering MORE SPEED.

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Brock Lovett: 26 years of experience working against him. He figures anything big enough to sink the ship they're gonna see in time to turn. The ship's too big with too small a rudder. It doesn't corner worth a damn. Everything he knows is wrong.

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Thomas Andrews: I'm sorry I didn't build you a stronger ship, young Rose.

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Rose: Mr. Andrews... I saw the iceberg and I see it in your eyes... please, tell me the truth.
Thomas Andrews: The ship... will sink.
Rose: You're certain?
Thomas Andrews: Yes, In an hour or so, all of this will be at the bottom of the Atlantic.
Cal Hockley: What?
Thomas Andrews: Please, tell only who you must. I don't want to be responsible for a panic. And get to a boat quickly, DON'T WAIT. You... remember what I told you, about the boats?
Rose: Yes... I understand.

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Rose: Mr. Andrews, forgive me. I did this sum in my head and with the number of lifeboats times the capacity you mentioned, forgive me, but it seems that there aren't enough for everyone aboard.
Thomas Andrews: 'Bout half, actually. Rose, you miss nothing, do you?

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[about his silverware during dinner]
Jack: Are these all for me?
Molly Brown: Just start from the outside and work your way in.

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Rose: Hello Jack. I changed my mind. They said you might be out here.
Jack: Shhh. Gimme your hand. Now close your eyes, go on. Now step up. Now hold on to the railing. Keep your eyes closed, don't peek.
Rose: I'm not.
Jack: Step up on the railing. Hold on, hold on. Keep your eyes closed. Do you trust me?
Rose: I trust you.
[Jack opens Rose's arms]
Jack: All right. Open your eyes.
Rose: [gasp] I'm flying, Jack!
[Jack starts singing]
Jack: Come, Josephine, in my flying machine, going up, she goes up, up she goes.
[they kiss]

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Molly Brown: Why do they always have to announce dinner like a damned cavalry charge?

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Thomas Andrews: Sleep soundly young Rose for I have built you a good ship, strong and true, she has all the lifeboats you need.

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Molly Brown: There's plenty of room for more.
Robert Hitchins: Yes, and there will be one less on this boat if you don't shut that hole in your face

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Lookout Frederick Fleet: [spots an iceberg ahead of the ship and calls into the wheelhouse] Pick up you bastards!
6th Officer Moody: [comes into the wheelhouse with a cup of tea in hand and answers the phone]
Lookout Frederick Fleet: Is there anyone there?
6th Officer Moody: Yes, what do you see?
Lookout Frederick Fleet: Iceberg, right ahead!
6th Officer Moody: Thank you.
[hangs up phone]
6th Officer Moody: [rushes out to the deck to notify 1st Officer William Murdoch] Iceberg right ahead!
6th Officer Moody, 1st Officer William Murdoch: Hard a'starboard!

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Smith: And how many aboard, Mr. Murdoch?
Murdoch: 2,200 souls on board, sir.
Smith: Well, I believe you may get your headline, Mr. Ismay.

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[after the collision]
Jack: This is bad!

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[Jack is kissing Rose's hand]
Jack: I saw that in a nickelodeon once and I've always wanted to do it.

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Fifth Officer Lowe: Is there anyone alive out there? Can anyone hear me?

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[Rose is about to cut Jack free with an axe]
Jack: Wait, wait, wait! Take a couple practice swings over there.
[Rose chops a hole in a cupboard door]
Jack: Good! Now try and hit the same mark again.
[Rose chops again, missing the first hole by about 3 feet]
Jack: Okay, that's enough practice.

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Rose: You have a gift Jack, you do. You see people.
Jack: I see you.
Rose: And?
Jack: You wouldn't have jumped.

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[after Jack "rescues" Rose from her suicide attempt, he holds Lovejoy back to scab some cigarettes]
Lovejoy: You'll want to tie those.
[He points at Jack's boots]
Lovejoy: It's interesting. The young lady slipped so suddenly and you still had time to remove your jacket and your shoes.

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Ruth: Tea, Trudy!
Trudy Bolt: Yes, ma'am.
Ruth: You're not to see that boy again. Do you understand me? Rose, I forbid it.
Rose: Oh stop it, mother. You'll give yourself a nose bleed.

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Jack: Where to, Miss?
Rose: To stars.

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Jack: Do you love him?
Rose: Pardon me?
Jack: Do you love him?
Rose: Well, you're being very rude. You shouldn't be asking me this.
Jack: Well, it's a simple question. Do you love the guy or not?
Rose: This is not a suitable conversation.
Jack: Why can't you just answer the question?
Rose: This is absurd. I don't know you and you don't know me and we are not having this conversation at all. You are rude and uncouth, and presumptuous, and I am leaving now.
[starts shaking Jack's hand]
Rose: Jack... Mister Dawson, it's been a pleasure. I've sought you out to thank you, and now I have thanked you.
Jack: And even insulted me.
Rose: Well, you deserved it.
Jack: Right.
Rose: Right.
Jack: [Rose is still shaking his hand] I thought you were leaving.
Rose: [turns to leave] I am. You are so annoying.
Jack: Ha, ha.
Rose: [turns back to Jack] Wait, I don't have to leave, this is my part of the ship. You leave.
Jack: Oh ho, ho, well well well, now who's being rude?

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[after Jack saves Rose]
Col. Archibald Gracie: Well, the boy's a hero! Good for you, son. Well done.

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[after the first class dinner, Jack gives Rose a note]
Jack: So, you wanna go to a real party?

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[Rose throws a dime to Jack]
Rose: As a paying customer, I expect to get what I want.

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Smith: Take her to sea, Mr. Murdoch. Let's stretch her legs.

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Bobby Buell: Brock! Brock! There's a satellite call for you.
Brock Lovett: Bobby, we're launching now. See these submersibles going into the water?
[motions to the subs]
Bobby Buell: Trust me, buddy, you wanna take this call.
[nods seriously as Bobby walks towards the satelitte phone]
Brock Lovett: This better be good.
[follows Bobby to the satellite phone]
Bobby Buell: Now, ya gotta speak up, she's kinda old.
Brock Lovett: Great.
[picks up phone]
Brock Lovett: This is Brock Lovett. How can I help you, Mrs...?
[turns to Bobby]
Bobby Buell: Calvert. Rose Calvert.
Brock Lovett: ...Mrs. Calvert?
Old Rose: I was just wondering if you had found the "Heart of the Ocean" yet, Mr. Lovett.
Brock Lovett: [turns to Bobby, completely shocked]
Bobby Buell: Told ya ya wanted to take the call.
Brock Lovett: All right, you have my attention, Rose. Can you tell us who the woman in the picture is?
Old Rose: Oh yes, the woman in the picture is me.

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[Old Rose is telling Lovett and his crew about the Titanic]
Old Rose: It was the ship of dreams to everyone else. To me it was a slave ship, taking me back to America in chains. Outwardly, I was everything a well brought up girl should be. Inside, I was screaming.

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[Jack and Fabrizio are playing poker in a bar in front of the port]
Jack: All right, the moment of truth. Somebody's life is about to change. Fabrizio? Niente.
Fabrizio: Niente.
Jack: Olaf? Nothing. Sven? Oh... two pairs. I'm sorry, Fabrizio.
Fabrizio: Que sorry, mavafanculo! You bet all our money!
Jack: I'm sorry, you're not gonna see your mom again for a long time, 'cause we're going to America, full house boys! Wohoo!

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Jack: Wait! We're passengers! We're passengers!
[flushed and panting, Jack waves the tickets as he and Fabrizio run up the ramp to the 3rd class gangway entrance]
6th Officer Moody: [looks at the tickets as Jack and Fabrizio reach the end of the ramp] Have you been through the inspection queue?
Jack: [lying] Of course! Anyway, we don't have lice, we're Americans.
[motions the tickets back and forth between himself and Fabrizio]
Jack: Both of us.
6th Officer Moody: [nods] Right. Come aboard.

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Countess of Rothes: [coming out of her stateroom with a confused look on her face; sees a steward and stops him] Excuse me, why have the engines stopped? I felt a shudder.
Steward #1: [calmly] I shouldn't worry ma'am. We've likely thrown a propeller blade, that's the shudder you felt. May I bring you anything?
Countess of Rothes: [is distracted for a moment as Thomas Andrews passes by in a nervous hurry with an armload of the ship's plans under one arm; redirecting her attention back to the steward as he disappears] N-no, thank you.

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[Jack is teaching Rose how to spit]
Rose: Mother! May I introduce Jack Dawson?
Ruth: Charmed, I'm sure.
[Old Rose, voice in off]
Old Rose: The others were gracious and curious about the man who had saved my life. But my mother looked at him like an insect. A dangerous insect, which must be squashed quickly.

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[During the first class dinner]
Waiter: How do you take your caviar, sir?
Jack: No caviar for me, thanks. Never did like it much.

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[Jack is dancing with Cora]
Jack: I'm gonna dance with her now, all right?
[Looking at Rose]
Jack: Come on.
Rose: What?
Jack: Come on, come with me.
Rose: Jack! Jack, wait. I can't do this.
Jack: We're gonna have to get a little bit closer. Like this.
[Jack looks at Cora]
Jack: You're still my best girl, Cora.

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[Rose is drinking black beer]
Rose: What? Do you think a first class girl can't drink?

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[Rose shows Jack the diamond]
Rose: Jack, I want you to draw me like one of your French girls. Wearing this...
Jack: All right.
Rose: Wearing "only" this.

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Old Rose: [about Jack drawing her naked] My heart was pounding the whole time. It was the most erotic moment of my life. Up until then, at least.
Lewis Bodine: So what happened next?
Old Rose: You mean, did we "do it"? Sorry to disappoint you Mr. Bodine, but Jack was very professional.

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[Jack and Rose are inside the car]
Jack: Are you nervous?
Rose: No. Put your hands on me, Jack.

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Irish Boy: What are we doing, mommy?
Irish Mother: We're just waiting, dear. When they're finished putting first class people in the boat, they'll be starting with us. And we ought to be ready, oughtn't we?
[Irish Girl nods]

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[Jack and Rose break a door while the ship is sinking]
Employee: Hey! What do you think you're doing? You'll have to pay for that, you know? That's White Star Line property.
Jack, Rose: Shut up!

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[Rose jumps from the saving boat and goes to where Jack is]
Jack: Rose! You're so stupid. Why did you do that, huh? You're so stupid, Rose. Why did you do that? Why?
Rose: You jump, I jump, right?
Jack: Right.
Rose: Oh God! I couldn't go. I couldn't go, Jack.
Jack: It's all right. We'll think of something.
Rose: At least I'm with you.
Jack: We'll think of something.

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[the Titanic is about to sink]
Rose: Jack! This is where we first met.

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[Talking about Caledon Hockley]
Old Rose: That was the last time I ever saw him. He married, of course. And inherited his millions. But the crash of '29 hit his interest hard, and he put a pistol in his mouth that year. Or so I read.

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[as the Carpathia is arriving in New York]
Carpathia Steward: Can I take your name, please love?
Rose: Dawson, Rose Dawson.

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Musician: What's the use? Nobody's listening to us anyway.
Wallace Hartley: Well, they don't listen to us at dinner either.

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Lewis Bodine: She's a goddamn liar! Some nutcase seeking money or publicity, God only knows what. Like that Russian babe, Anesthesia.
[Mistaken name, intentionally kept in the scene]
Lewis Bodine: [walking towards the helicopter with Bobby following behind]
Lewis Bodine: Rose DeWitt Bukater died on the Titanic when she was seventeen, right?
Brock Lovett: That's right.
Lewis Bodine: If she had lived, she'd be over a hundred by now.
Brock Lovett: One-hundred and one next month.
Lewis Bodine: Okay, so she's a very OLD goddamn liar! Look, I've already done the background on this woman all the way back to the twenties, when she was working as an actress. An actress! There's your first clue, Sherlock! Her name was Rose Dawson back then. Then she marries this guy named Calvert, they move to Cedar Rapids and she punches out a couple of kids. Now Calvert's dead, and from what I hear Cedar Rapids is dead!
Brock Lovett: And everyone who knows about the diamond is supposed to be dead, or on this boat, but she knows!

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Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Get Back I Say, or I'll shoot you all like dogs! Keep order here! Keep order I say. Mr. Lowe, man this boat.

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Jack: [stepping into the water after Rose rescues him] Oh shit this is cold! Shit, shit, shit.

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Cal Hockley: [laughing] I put the diamond in the coat.
[pauses]
Cal Hockley: I put the coat on her.

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4th Officer Joseph Boxhall: [as Titanic plunges down into the icy waters of the ocean, boat 2 rows away] Bloody pull faster and pull!

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Cal Hockley: A real man makes his own luck.

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[having encountered a mother and baby, frozen to death in the water]
Fifth Officer Lowe: We waited too long.

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[addressing stewards who have locked the steerage passengers below decks as the ship is sinking]
Tommy Ryan: You can't keep us locked up in here like animals - the ship's bloody sinking!

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Lovejoy: What could possibly be funny?

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Rose: So you think you're big tough men?
[Rose takes Tommy's cigarette and takes a pull]
Rose: Then let's see you do this. Hold this for me Jack.
[lifts up her dress train]
Rose: Hold it up!
[Rose then slowly rises on her toes to complete a toe-stand]
3rd Class Irish Woman: Jesus, Mary, and Joseph.

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Rose: I'm through being polite, goddammit! Now, take me down.

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Rose: [whispering to Jack] Next it will be brandys in the smoking room.
Col. Archibald Gracie: [to everybody] Join me in a brandy, gentlemen?
Rose: [whispering to Jack] They are retreating into a cloud of smoke where they will congratulate each other on being masters of the universe.

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Rose: The sky. It's so vast and endless. My crowd, they think they're giants. They're like dust in the eyes of God.
Jack: You're not one of them.

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Fabrizio: [deleted scene] Helga, you come with me now. I am very lucky is my destiny to go to America please
[kiss]
Fabrizio: Come.
Helga Dahl: [pulls back] I'm sorry
Fabrizio: I will never forget you.

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Molly Brown: Do you have the slightest inclination of what you're getting into?
Jack: Not really.
Molly Brown: Well, you're about to enter the snake pit... what are you going to wear?
[nods at the clothes Jack has on. He looks down and shrugs]
Molly Brown: I thought so. Come on.

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Tommy Ryan: If this is the direction the rats are going that's fine with me!

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Jack: [deleted scences] I never cared too much for all that Dadaism and Cubism. Just had no heart.
Rose: I like some of it.
Jack: Really? For me Paris was more about living on the streets and trying to put it on paper.
Rose: You know, my dream has always been to run away and become an artist, Living in a garrett poor but free!
Jack: You wouldn't last 2 days. Theres no hot water and hardly any caviar.

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Molly Brown: Nothing to it is there? Remember, they love money so pretend like you own a gold mine and you're in the club.

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Rose: [deleted scenes] Look! A shooting star.
Jack: Its a long one. My pops used to tell me that every time you saw one it was a soul going to heaven.
Rose: I like that. Aren't you supposed to wish on it?
Jack: [intently] why? what would you wish for?
Rose: [pause] Something i can't have.

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Molly Brown: You gonna cut her meat for her too Cal?

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Rose: You used this woman several times.
Jack: She has beautiful hands, see?
Rose: I think you must have had a love affair with her.
Jack: No, just with her hands. See.
[turns page]
Jack: She was a one-legged prostitute. Ah, she had a good sense of humour though.

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Jack: There uh, isn't any arrangement is there?
Cal Hockley: No, there is. Not that you'll benefit much from it. I always win Jack, one way or another.

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Jack: Rose! How did you find out I didn't do it?
Rose: I didn't. I just realized I already knew.

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Cal Hockley: Any room for a gentleman? Gentlemen?

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Rose: I will do this with or without your help, sir... but without, it will take longer.

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Thomas Andrews: Mr. Lightoller, why are the boats being launched half full?
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Not now, Mr. Andrews.
Thomas Andrews: Look, 20 or so in a boat built for 65? And I saw one boat with only 12, 12!
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Well, we weren't sure of the weight, Mr. Andrews. These boats may buckle.
Thomas Andrews: Rubbish! They were tested in Belfast with the weight of 70 men! Now, fill these boats, Mr. Lightoller, for God Sake's Man!
Second Officer Charles Herbert Lightoller: Please, I need more women and children, please!

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Rose: [Rose is pointing out certain people to Jack before dinner] That's John Jacob Astor, the richest man on the ship. His little wifey there, Madelyn, is my age and in a delicate condition. See how she's trying to hide it? Quite the scandal.
Cal Hockley: Rose is displeased... what to do?

Monday, February 18, 2008

WHAT IS LIFE FOR ME???

ITS JUST A MEMORIES

Now I know that life is important. Oh God - Why are these voices held captive deep within my head? God - Why go on living instead of dying to hold open arms to. Voices keep saying to me grab firmly a hold of that razor blade ever so tight... No need to live - no need to fight. Just imagining the blood trickle and drip down to my feet. I am not a champion of the living but a loyal unquestioning butler. I cannot wait to try on that silky or satinny cloaked linning inside that coffin... So smooth to teh skin - so smoothy softened. A much sought after slumbering sleep of peace... Could all of this happen from digesting too much fats and grease? No more money or health issues.. At my funeral mass will there be a lot of wet eyes requiring. Somber organ music played in a church mass of well good intention... No will to be left greedy relatibes too greedy and evil. How else may I do it? with a noose or a gun? Pills swallowed could be well peaceful as fun. From this life I don't have to be brave. From now on, I'll just be a scared running knave. Life just get out of my tight pocket. Just let me finally close these eyelids to cover these tiresome eye sockets. Let us end life now and end it quick... Its into the ground with me they'll have to implant and stick. THE END...

Life is precoius while one is conscious, life is fabolous and joyous for the righteous. Life is monstrous inflicting sad moments while callous. Life makes us anxious that feeling of life is always infectious. Life is beautiful when adventurous and dareful. Life is a challenge with a purposeful goal. For others life is about revenge and control. Life is a lesson for all persons. Life is the reason for life as we exist season by season. The complexitty of life is awesome, an illusion of reality is gruesome.

Hanggang ngayon.... Mahal pa rin Kita

MInsan nagmahal ako ng higit pa sa sarili ko... pero nasaktan lang ako... minsan lang nangyari yun at ayoko ng maulit pa... kaya sinara ko ang puso ko at sinabing "WALA PA RING HIHIGIT SA'YO". Lam mo miss na kita, yung kakaibang smile mo, yung cute na mukha mo, pati na rin yung weird na jokes mo.. pero lam mo kung ano miss na miss ko? Yung smile na nilalagay mo sa face ko. May pagkakataon sinusubukan tayo.. Kung gano katibay, kalakas, katatag na harapin ang mga problema... pag dumating man ang oras na yun, wag ka susuko. Hawak ka sa akin, di ako bibitaw. bakit lahat ng iniingatan ko nawawala? bakit lahat ng iabot sakin dumudulas? lahat ng ibibigay nbbwi? lahat ng dumating umaalis din agad... hawak ka sakin mabuti ha, yoko na kasi mawala ka eh... di ko lam kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman mo para sakin. kung ano man un, nakahanda ako... mahal mo man ako o hindi, laro o totoo, isa lang ang alam ko... mahal kita, masaktan man ako.

Marami akong hindi nasabi, marami akong hindi naipakita. Kaya pag ala nako dito sa mundo, babalik ako para sabihin ko na.... PINAHALAGAHAN KITA NG SOBRA. minsan gusto nating sabihin na masaya tayo... pero anumang pilit nating maging masaya, hahanapin pa rin natin ang isang bagay na nagpapasaya satin, ewan ko kung ano sau? sakin kasi... IKAW...... SANA

Minsan gusto kong magalit, minsan I want to give-up, minsan gusto ko umiyak, pero kahit ilang beses kong isipin yon, i always ended up saying... "LANGYA, MAHAL PA RIN KITA!!!!!!". Mahal kita pero mahal mo siya. Meron na siyang mahal na iba. Bakit hindi na lang: Mahal kita mahal mo ako... bahal na sila. May ibang tao diyan kaya kong tiisin, may ibang tao diyan, kaya kong balewalain... pero bakit pagdating sayo di ko yun kayang gawin? siguro ayoko lang maranasan ang hirap pag ikaw ang nawala sa akin...

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Remembering, hurting and bleeding

I remember the coldness of the night
When somebody leads me to the light
The warmth of his hands untangled my heart
That was entwined since the very first start

I remember the happy times we shared
the friendship that ran deep and fill the air
the bond that kept burning until one day
He reveals what his heart feels and says

I remember the song I used to hear
And his voice continue ringing in my ear
this lonely soul wanted you near
But i promised to let no drop of tear

I remember the feeling when we're apart
How i long to be with him and never depart
But he chose to leave me and be by her side
then i suddenly felt my world subside

I remember the pain I felt
When he turned his back and let my heart melt
the memories I used to cherish and embrace
Now i buried in my past and left with no trace

I remember the lies that made me blind
The truth that you kept behind
the time that quietly passed by
Not knowing how many times I cry

Life lessons....
Life is too short. Grudges re waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances, give everything and have no regrets. life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take good with the bad, smile when you are sad. Love what you got and always remember what you had. Always forgive, never forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

My shortest essay that I have made...

The truth is not a day goes by without you on my mind.
So many things I want to say, still the words are hard to find.
But I don't think I need big words to tell you how I feel,
Cause when I say "I miss you", that's exactly how I feel...

When I need you the most, I think of you.
I do not believe in ghost but I do believe you are always with me.
I try and try not to cry,
but the more I try, the more I miss you.

-- dedicated to the one who is so very dear and very special in my heart. He is in my new company now, in SGS Gulf Limited ROHQ.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Someday, I need to let you go

you promised you wouldn't hurt me. how come we don't know always know when love begins, and we always know when it ends. you hurt me in a way i never thought that you could; you hurt me so much when all I ever did was to love you. Thinking about you is always breaking my heart. Maybe you don't love me like I love you. I think you will never realize how much you hurt me. It hurts so much to love you the way I do and then look at you and realize how much you don't care. someday you will want me back, and when that time comes, I WILL NOT CARE! maybe im not the one for you and maybe you're not the one i deserve. i promise, someday you'll regret losing me. goodbye to you.. goodbye to everything i thought i knew. you dont know me like you knew me. you stopped listening the moment that i needed you the most,you cant see me like you saw me. i have loved you with all my heart; you caused me so much pain but you did not care. you gave me noting that's all ive got; it hurts to breathe because every breath take proves i can't live without you. missing you is not the hard part; knowing once I had you is what breaks my heart maybe part of loving is learning to let go every time when i pour out my heart to you, im not sure it shows that i love you more than you'll never know. i walk away for you to go and find me. i try myself to hold on but you just let me go. maybe our love wasn't enough for us to hold on and be together, maybe my love was not enough for you even though I gave you everything that i can, my efforts and sacrifices go unfounded. my heart is broken, torn in two, my world fell apart all because of you. you're the one i loved, one thing that ive tried to hold on to. it is hard to deal with the pain of loving you everywhere i go, but im doing it. i may get hurt along the way, but ill find true love someday

Friday, January 18, 2008

JOE D Mango's Response

Arnel, there is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives. You could have done anything you wanted but Jerome's death was God's call. He works in ways that may sometimes be difficult to accept, but we should never question His judgment. He never took Jerome away, He just put an end to his painful suffering. Now, he is at peace with God and no longer in pain. You should be happy for him.

There was a time when you could not seem to compromise your career with your relationship with Jerome. You left him when he needed you the most and you came back when it was too late. You know you should have been with him when he had his attack but still you left him alone. It seemed like you had no choice, but you have an option. You have been silently carrying out this burden of guilt in your heart and I think this is the reason you are still lingering in pain.

You have to learn to forgive yourself for what you did and what you failed to do with Jerome. The only way to move on is to stop blaming God or yourself for Jerome's death. God did not take away the reason for your existence. he just spared you from more pain.

You can spend the rest of yourlife questioning God, probably finding a few answers and ending up being miserable. Many if us who have lost very special peoplecry over and over in pain. But we have to realize that one day, tears have to stop falling and the hurting has to end for we cannot be prisoners of the past forever.

Stop being bitter, Jerome does not want to see you this way. he wants you to be happy. You have lost someone you love but that does not mean that you cannot love again. Let us always remember that we can only move on if we accept the things that we do not want to happen, learn the things we do not want to know and let go of the memories we cannot live without.

I hope this helps.


Joe

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This is not the exact answer word per word of Joe but the same thought only.

Grieving Over the Loss of Only Love

Dear Joe,

My story started last 2002 but it is only now that I got courage to share my story to you and my fellow listeners.

Joe, I am a 20 year old student here in Makati. When I was in high school, I met Jerome. That was the time when my adviser got mad at me because of the accusations against me. While I am on my way home, some boys played a trick on me. They pulled my bag and then my things spread on the ground. They even tore my bag and treat it like a basketball. I cannot do anything aside from crying. Good thing, he came. He saved me from them. That night, I feel something unusual deep within inside of myself. I prayed for him that he would be okay and I wish that I could see him again.

The next day, I saw him again outside our school. I treat him in a banana cue snack and then afterwards, I asked him to join me to go to the adoration chapel just to pray. I thanked him for saving me to those naughty boys. Then he asked me “Arnel, there is something I will show to you.” I immediately said YES. Then we went there. That place was so magical. You could the gentle force of the wind gently kissing your face, the sound of the humming birds, and the breeze of the flowing water really refreshes me. Every time the school dismisses, I used to go along with him on that place. I used to do my assignments there and he assists me mostly on Physics.

One time, when we were there, he played his guitar and he played the song LOVERSMOON. As he strummed his guitar, tears fall from his eyes. I know that he has a problem that he is not telling me but I just ignored it. He saw me staring at him and he told me, “The message of the song, I mean it for you!”

One day he asked me, “Can you join in the family party on Saturday? It’s my lola’s birthday. I told them that I have a new friend and I’m going to introduce you to them.” I said yes to his invitation and I promised that I will be there on time. Saturday came and the party is already starting. He introduced me to his family. They are so happy. Then his little sister Jane approaches me and she talked to me. We talked of so many things. Later that day, Jerome asked me, “Arnel do you want to go home?” “No”, I responded. That time, I became very curious to all of his movements.
When it is time to go home, I immediately bid farewell to his relatives. I also made a promise to them that I would also be there on Christmas day if I would be available. I have noticed a light feeling that I have inside of me because they have treated me like a family. When we arrived home, I asked him to go inside first of the house and I will just change my clothes. When I go out of my room, he is gone. I saw a letter on my slippers and I read it “Arnel, I have to go. My mom is looking for me.”

The next day, I told him why he did that. The only word that he uttered is SORRY. I do not know why I felt his sincerity when he said that word that’s why I forgave him.

One day a terrible thing came to me. For me, this is the worst scenario of my life. I did not see him anymore. I usually go to our meeting place but still he is not going there. One time, I went to their house. Their neighbor told me that he is brought to the hospital because he collapsed. That night, I went immediately to the hospital where he brought. Outside the room, I saw his sister Jane. She told me that Jerome was suffering from sever headaches lately. He did not want to go to a doctor because he was afraid of knowing his true sickness was. It was the first time that Jerome collapsed.

Later, Jane told me that her brother has LEUKEMIA. He was already unconscious for three days. She asked me to go inside and told me, “Kuya Arnel, wala na tayong magagawa. Pagdasal na lang natin siya.” I even bought our favorite food which is siopao but it was too late.

When I entered the room, I saw his mother crying. Then he told me that she will go to the canteen to have a snack then afterwards, she will come back. When she left, I asked him to press my hand if he hears me. Then suddenly, he did! I told him crying, “Ang daya mo naman. Sabi mo walang sikreto, bakit nilihim mong may sakit ka?” He said, “Ayaw ko na magalala ka pa!” He asked me if he could lean on me. I grant his request so that I would not give him any hard feelings. 11:00 in the evening, the sound of the continuous beep on the ECG machine echoed as I saw him became lifeless. I cried and mourn so loudly. Suddenly, I saw a crucifix on top of his bed and I prayed, “Alam ko na naging masama akong anak sa Inyo. Pero hinihiling ko lang po sandali lang pahiram muna niya.” Then, he raised his hand and hold me to my arms. Then he whispered, “Gusto ko na magpahinga!” Even though it hurts me, I have to let him go.

Joe, Jerome was already dead. I threw the siopao that I brought and hugged him very tightly. “Jerome, sige na magpahinga ka na. Kakayanin ko sarili ko ngayong wala ka na” was all I could whisper into him in tears.

His mom told me this words in tears... "Lumayo siya dahil ayaw niyang malaman ang katotohanan tungkol sa sakit niya. Nagpunta siya sa isang lugar na walang nakakikilala sa kanya. At sa paglayo niya, ay nakilala ka niya."

His death has posed so many questions. Why did the Lord deprive him with the gift of life, when there is someone who cannot live without him? Why did he not take me instead? Why should these things happen to me? Did I do anything wrong to experience a life like this? Why Joe, is He doing this to me?

I asked the help of a psychiatrist and a psychologist, but not even the medicines, therapies and dictionaries could alleviate the pain I feel. His memories are still here… lingers in my heart.

I have been living in pain for the past 4 years and perhaps I continue to live in pain. Does God still have a plan for me when He already took the reason for my existence?

Thank you for allowing me to share my bitter story with you and your fellow listeners. Can you please play the song LOVERSMOON by Glenn Frey? It will bring back a smile on Jerome’s face wherever he may be.


ALWAYS,

Arnel

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Loving and Waiting in Vain

it hurts, it really hurts...

just when i thought the long wait is over... reality just made me realized, the waiting has just started... just when i thought that everything is already fine, truth is, everything is still not ok...

is the waiting going to be worth it?? am i going to be able to hold on? am i going to be able to bear the pain the waiting is causing me? so many questions but not so many answers...

i'm still clinging, holding on... i am going to wait for it is my happiness that's going to be the reward for waiting... but i hope that i would not give up, for people also get tired...

but to the person i love, i am promising that i will be waiting until i cannot hold on anymore... for you i will, eventhough it is tough... for you are my happiness and that i dont want to miss that thing that is going to be my everything... i will wait in here, for you... ;c

Several Reasons why I love you

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience make us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday is shattered and we are fling. Dimly seeing there, And for drawing out into the light, All the beautiful belongings that no ne else had looked quite far enough to find. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that does not diminish its value. Because we are left wiht memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives. You have done it wihtout a touch, without a word, without a sign. you have done it by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being a friend means, after all. I love you because you are helping me to make of the lumber of my life not a tavern but a temple; Out of the works of every day not a reproach but a song.

I love you not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.

I love you for that part of me; I love you for putting your hand into my heaped-up heart. And passing over all the foolish, weak things that you can't help.

I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.

I love you not only for what you have made of yourself but what you are making of me.

Shower me with your love

My heart is filled with so much love and I need
Someone I can call my own
To fall in love, that's what everyone's dreaming of
I hold these feelings oh so strong
Life is too short
To live alone
Without someone
To call my own
I will care for you
You will care for me
Our love will live forever...

Chorus:
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love that I long for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for

I close my eyes and pray all my wishes come true
Every nite I go to sleep
Until you're mine, I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see
Fairy tales, they do
Sometimes come true
If you believe, it
Could happen to you
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever...

Repeat Chorus

Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
Live forever...

Repeat Chorus 2x

Saturday, January 5, 2008

I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE AND I WILL NEVER STOP CARING!!

You know what's sad about love?

It's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you bwing together yet you still pray to make it work, it's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on, and most of all it's when no matter how you try to forget him or her you just can't, because of the fact that you still love him or her and you just do not know why. Try loving someone you've loved before and you'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before... or something better. Not hard isn't it?

" But why not try loving someone who does not love you back. it's either you see yourself giving up or dying daily..." - Grey's Anatomy

If you love and get hurt, love more, if you love more and get hurt more, love even more, if you love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.. - William Shakepeare

The gauge of how much you truly treasure sometihng or someone is not how happy you are with them, but how sad you are when you lose them. One grows distant form another not because of indifference but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer, a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it...

Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance; Staying in love is never by chance - always by choice; And faling out of love is never a choice - always a decision.

Attraction comeds to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. Listen: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen... We may meet someone by chance, but loving and staying with that someone is still a choice. Just because my eyes don't have tears, it doesn't mean that my heart does not cry. Just because you always see me strong, it does not mean that there is nothing wrong. Sometimes I choose to pretend I'm happy so I do not have to explain to people who would never even understand. Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why I am sad. It's never the tears that measure the pain, sometimes it's the smile we fake. A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes.. while everyone stil believes in the smile on your face. The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world, and may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine. Time can heal wounds, but it can never get back what we once had and lost. TIme can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done, because God gave us time but we never valued this gift he had given us. So learn to treasure the ones you choose to love now, because when they go, there won't be time to have them back.

In life, I have done every way of fighting. Heard every painful truth, been in every heartbreaking scene and felt every dreadful feeling. I thought going thru it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight at least to save alittle for myself.. But you know what's funny? It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all.. but still I can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day... I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just "right" but "real."

Love is like giving someone a gun, having them point at your heart. And trusting them to never pull the trigger. I do not know why well hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It'd like we are scared to lose what we do not really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is: "to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all." I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have, who could hold me tight, the one who will never let me go. till every drop of tears that I have had fallen, till every strength that I have has already passed out, then I can no longer move, as she or he lay me down in my bed sings me a lullaby till I fall asleep and whisper beside me, I will never leave you, angel of mine..

Time may take us away, space may keep us apart, rumors and hurts may break us down, yet no matter where life leads us....

I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE AND I WILL NEVER STOP CARING!!